HIDDEN DEPRESSION: 5 Signs You're Smiling, But Depressed
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Date: 2023-08-20
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devil's
In my family I was the one who did the least physical work due to me being the weakest in the family so I played more of an emotional support role in the house we worked with greyhounds and whenever we had to let one go my brother would be a mess and sometimes even other family members too I was the one who would be there for them and trying to keep everyone emotionally stable that was already taking its toll on my mental health then I had a friend lose a few family members so I helped them through that then my brother and my mum ended having a few arguments here and there slowly the arguments became more and more common when I thought there was finally a suitable midway reached something would happen even if nobody did anything arguments would start then my mum and dad divorced and that hit me the hardest and this was recently too I'm in my final year of high school so I'm also worried about having to leave all the friends I've made behind since they've been one of the only things keeping me emotionally sane and then I hear from my dad that he maybe moving to another country next year and he's giving me the choice to go with if he does end up going. My mind has been toen between so many things but in the end I don't want people knowing I don't want people worrying about my life because I want to keep the focus off of all of it I game a lot just to distract myself from this entire situation and still throughout all of this I still play emotional support when I can
(These next bits are going to be a bit darker, so if you don't wanna read it, you don't have to. This is just a little warning, so you know)
I've found myself experiencing tons of weird things which I can only point to this situation for one I've considered suicide multiple times but the two things that are keeping me going are my friends I don't wanna make them feel bad and the fact that my family's still struggling and I wanna help where I can the second thing was happening long before the whole parents divorcing thing but it's gotten more common since then for some reason I commonly picture the people I care about dead sometimes when I'm heading back home from my classes I picture entering my house to see my dad hanging from his neck and when I pick up a knife in the cooking class I'm taking I can picture it bloodstained as clear as day I've had two emotional break downs over recent events once at home and another in one of my classes I've been recommended to go to the counselor our school has to just kinda get everything off of my chest but I'm worried that if people heard I was going to the school counselor they'd start to worry I don't want my friends worrying about my personal life I also want this last year to be enjoyable without drama, without any kind of worry but I know that's impossible and sometimes I just wish I could me more than what I am compared to the people I know I'm weak as all hell, have horrible endurance and is probably the most useless person out of everyone in my year and this point I've just accepted that role and now I don't know whether or not I should've tried harder whenever I watch these types of videos there are points in them where I can basically see a time where I did the exact thing that was mentioned and the worst part is I don't know if I should get help I don't want to make my family worried that I may just off myself at some point I don't want to make my friends worried about me but at this point I'm at my fcking limit and have been there for a while all because I've always been helping others, I've always let people insult me calling me useless, weak, an idiot, braindead and I've always made it look like I was taking it as a joke but in the end in some corner of my mind I see it as true. There is more, but
A. I can't think of how to put it into words
B. This comment is already way to long
So I'll just end it here.
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In my family I was the one who did the least physical work due to me being the weakest in the family so I played more of an emotional support role in the house we worked with greyhounds and whenever we had to let one go my brother would be a mess and sometimes even other family members too I was the one who would be there for them and trying to keep everyone emotionally stable that was already taking its toll on my mental health then I had a friend lose a few family members so I helped them through that then my brother and my mum ended having a few arguments here and there slowly the arguments became more and more common when I thought there was finally a suitable midway reached something would happen even if nobody did anything arguments would start then my mum and dad divorced and that hit me the hardest and this was recently too I'm in my final year of high school so I'm also worried about having to leave all the friends I've made behind since they've been one of the only things keeping me emotionally sane and then I hear from my dad that he maybe moving to another country next year and he's giving me the choice to go with if he does end up going. My mind has been toen between so many things but in the end I don't want people knowing I don't want people worrying about my life because I want to keep the focus off of all of it I game a lot just to distract myself from this entire situation and still throughout all of this I still play emotional support when I can
(These next bits are going to be a bit darker, so if you don't wanna read it, you don't have to. This is just a little warning, so you know)
I've found myself experiencing tons of weird things which I can only point to this situation for one I've considered suicide multiple times but the two things that are keeping me going are my friends I don't wanna make them feel bad and the fact that my family's still struggling and I wanna help where I can the second thing was happening long before the whole parents divorcing thing but it's gotten more common since then for some reason I commonly picture the people I care about dead sometimes when I'm heading back home from my classes I picture entering my house to see my dad hanging from his neck and when I pick up a knife in the cooking class I'm taking I can picture it bloodstained as clear as day I've had two emotional break downs over recent events once at home and another in one of my classes I've been recommended to go to the counselor our school has to just kinda get everything off of my chest but I'm worried that if people heard I was going to the school counselor they'd start to worry I don't want my friends worrying about my personal life I also want this last year to be enjoyable without drama, without any kind of worry but I know that's impossible and sometimes I just wish I could me more than what I am compared to the people I know I'm weak as all hell, have horrible endurance and is probably the most useless person out of everyone in my year and this point I've just accepted that role and now I don't know whether or not I should've tried harder whenever I watch these types of videos there are points in them where I can basically see a time where I did the exact thing that was mentioned and the worst part is I don't know if I should get help I don't want to make my family worried that I may just off myself at some point I don't want to make my friends worried about me but at this point I'm at my fcking limit and have been there for a while all because I've always been helping others, I've always let people insult me calling me useless, weak, an idiot, braindead and I've always made it look like I was taking it as a joke but in the end in some corner of my mind I see it as true. There is more, but
A. I can't think of how to put it into words
B. This comment is already way to long
So I'll just end it here.
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M! na
past lives couldn't ever hold me down
past love is sweater when it's finally found
i got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around
past lives coudn't ever come between us
sometimes the dreamers finally wake up don't wake i'm not dreaming
don't wake me i'm not dreaming past lives coudn't ever hold me down
lost love is sweater when it's finally found
i got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around
past lives coudn't ever come between us
sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
don't wake me i'm not dreaming don't wake me i'm not dreaming
past lives couldn't ever hold me down
lost love is sweater when it's finally found
i got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around
past lives couldn't ever come between us
sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
don't wake me i'm not dreaming don't wake me i'm not dreaming.
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past lives couldn't ever hold me down
past love is sweater when it's finally found
i got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around
past lives coudn't ever come between us
sometimes the dreamers finally wake up don't wake i'm not dreaming
don't wake me i'm not dreaming past lives coudn't ever hold me down
lost love is sweater when it's finally found
i got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around
past lives coudn't ever come between us
sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
don't wake me i'm not dreaming don't wake me i'm not dreaming
past lives couldn't ever hold me down
lost love is sweater when it's finally found
i got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around
past lives couldn't ever come between us
sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
don't wake me i'm not dreaming don't wake me i'm not dreaming.
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Nancy
the only one i ave is comparing yourself to others my posture isnt licke straight, and my mom has told me this once you should change your posture, your back should be straight licke everyone else! and after ever since she has told me that now im super insecure about my back posture, sometimes when i realize my back isnt straight i fix it, and sometimes i look at other girls or ppl with a straight posture and in my head sometimes i just wish my back was straight, i dont wanna be mean but its my moms fault if im now insecure about my posture, i always worry about it now, always. I fix my posture when i realize and im now insecure about also cuz im scared ppl are gona start to come up to me and judge me about it.
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the only one i ave is comparing yourself to others my posture isnt licke straight, and my mom has told me this once you should change your posture, your back should be straight licke everyone else! and after ever since she has told me that now im super insecure about my back posture, sometimes when i realize my back isnt straight i fix it, and sometimes i look at other girls or ppl with a straight posture and in my head sometimes i just wish my back was straight, i dont wanna be mean but its my moms fault if im now insecure about my posture, i always worry about it now, always. I fix my posture when i realize and im now insecure about also cuz im scared ppl are gona start to come up to me and judge me about it.
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education
Man 24 here. I used to be quite shy and introverted as a kid due to being bullied and low self-esteem. At one point, I was diagnosed with BDD but someohow I got over it. Nowadays, I quit my job due to the toxicity in there. I went to study abroad but despite getting the highest mark of my class still, my confidence didn't improve. When I came back I seeked a job at what I studied but to no avail. Now I feel sad and I start crying out of the blue. I dwell on the past. I think that all these people who bullied me were right after all. I feel sad when I see other people having fun. I feel intimidated around other people especially beautiful women. It may be only in my mind but still why can't I do anything?
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Man 24 here. I used to be quite shy and introverted as a kid due to being bullied and low self-esteem. At one point, I was diagnosed with BDD but someohow I got over it. Nowadays, I quit my job due to the toxicity in there. I went to study abroad but despite getting the highest mark of my class still, my confidence didn't improve. When I came back I seeked a job at what I studied but to no avail. Now I feel sad and I start crying out of the blue. I dwell on the past. I think that all these people who bullied me were right after all. I feel sad when I see other people having fun. I feel intimidated around other people especially beautiful women. It may be only in my mind but still why can't I do anything?
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Alison
I keep my depression, hidden. I go to work & be sociable to my colleagues & guests. Then I come home to my pets, 1 dog & cats. Then, I stay in my house. My depression is caused by 'Betrayal Trauma'. 18 months ago, a guy, who I thought was a friend, for 3 years, turned on me. He went 'no contact' on me, then he tried to destroy me. He lost, because I refused to retaliate & respond. He moved out, to live with her, last year. He is still in town, but we ignore each other. I avoid him, I know his routine well! They deserve each other, they're both low-life, rotten people. I still find it hard to trust people, now. It's easier for me to be a 'Hermit'.
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I keep my depression, hidden. I go to work & be sociable to my colleagues & guests. Then I come home to my pets, 1 dog & cats. Then, I stay in my house. My depression is caused by 'Betrayal Trauma'. 18 months ago, a guy, who I thought was a friend, for 3 years, turned on me. He went 'no contact' on me, then he tried to destroy me. He lost, because I refused to retaliate & respond. He moved out, to live with her, last year. He is still in town, but we ignore each other. I avoid him, I know his routine well! They deserve each other, they're both low-life, rotten people. I still find it hard to trust people, now. It's easier for me to be a 'Hermit'.
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Inka_Kn
Smiling through the pain or just shutting away my emotions became a habit over the years, so now if anyone asks me if I'm ok I'll just break down. My advice to anyone who's struggling with expressing themselves, their emotions, or struggling mentally, it's not worth locking up your emotions. Seek help from a friend or family member you can trust or seek out professional help and if you're not ready yet try to get out of your comfort zone to help express yourself and how you feel, art and music are both great forms of self-expression. Just any little hobby you think you'd like in general could help
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Smiling through the pain or just shutting away my emotions became a habit over the years, so now if anyone asks me if I'm ok I'll just break down. My advice to anyone who's struggling with expressing themselves, their emotions, or struggling mentally, it's not worth locking up your emotions. Seek help from a friend or family member you can trust or seek out professional help and if you're not ready yet try to get out of your comfort zone to help express yourself and how you feel, art and music are both great forms of self-expression. Just any little hobby you think you'd like in general could help
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Idkhahahhh
The sad thing is when youve been masking for the whole time you made a friend once a few years pass you des idea to stop or at least try but then you finally slightly do but now your friends think your being different but your finnaly being yourself and being sad when you are so you can be actually happy later but our friends think your going through something now but youve always been and you cant say anything about any mental disorders or they will think your overthinking and its just been one week but its been your whole life almost
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The sad thing is when youve been masking for the whole time you made a friend once a few years pass you des idea to stop or at least try but then you finally slightly do but now your friends think your being different but your finnaly being yourself and being sad when you are so you can be actually happy later but our friends think your going through something now but youve always been and you cant say anything about any mental disorders or they will think your overthinking and its just been one week but its been your whole life almost
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Kaneko
I honestly have noticed the signs about me like suppressing my feelings thinking that it's fine as long as I keep it in, avoiding my problems mentally because I didn't want to go through it and I may look happy outside but inside I feel numb and dull I don't feel as happy as I was when I was a child, I realized sooner that keeping my feelings inside was never a good choice because It made my feelings explode I felt like a ticking time bomb Im Working on myself But now I'm still doing the same thing. I just wanted to say that lol
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I honestly have noticed the signs about me like suppressing my feelings thinking that it's fine as long as I keep it in, avoiding my problems mentally because I didn't want to go through it and I may look happy outside but inside I feel numb and dull I don't feel as happy as I was when I was a child, I realized sooner that keeping my feelings inside was never a good choice because It made my feelings explode I felt like a ticking time bomb Im Working on myself But now I'm still doing the same thing. I just wanted to say that lol
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Kawakeb
I think i had dippression all this time without knowing because everytime i smile and laugh I do so in an attempt to try to feel happy because deep inside I feel neutraul the same I noticed that when I cry I feel the same when I laugh and I have these thought: am I trully happy. I say yes offcourse cant you see how I am smilling and laughing. Then my thoughts say: then why do you feel the same as always. I say no I must be happy and ignore it.
But now that I know I dont have to force myself into smilling anymore
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I think i had dippression all this time without knowing because everytime i smile and laugh I do so in an attempt to try to feel happy because deep inside I feel neutraul the same I noticed that when I cry I feel the same when I laugh and I have these thought: am I trully happy. I say yes offcourse cant you see how I am smilling and laughing. Then my thoughts say: then why do you feel the same as always. I say no I must be happy and ignore it.
But now that I know I dont have to force myself into smilling anymore
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Alouette
I develop more intellect as I grew up and trying to explain my feelings just doesn't sound logical. That is exactly why I keep believing I am fine even though I'm not. My dad is no open about me explaining my mental health. All i can say is it really hurts. I really wish there really is I'm objective way for me to explain it otherwise he will never just understand. That's why I would try to seek professional help and he's supporting me for that at least.
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I develop more intellect as I grew up and trying to explain my feelings just doesn't sound logical. That is exactly why I keep believing I am fine even though I'm not. My dad is no open about me explaining my mental health. All i can say is it really hurts. I really wish there really is I'm objective way for me to explain it otherwise he will never just understand. That's why I would try to seek professional help and he's supporting me for that at least.
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education
I think i relate to destructive perfectionism. Because of my unrealistic standards, i try to make everything flawless. Even i feel so exhausted i always act im energetic. Whenever i feel numb inside i forcefully smile to others and say'em im so grateful. Sometimes pain covers my whole soul and body and still i try to hide it. People found me too optimistic and calm. But i just dont want them to feel the same way as i feel.
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I think i relate to destructive perfectionism. Because of my unrealistic standards, i try to make everything flawless. Even i feel so exhausted i always act im energetic. Whenever i feel numb inside i forcefully smile to others and say'em im so grateful. Sometimes pain covers my whole soul and body and still i try to hide it. People found me too optimistic and calm. But i just dont want them to feel the same way as i feel.
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The 3rd one though. it hits hard tbh! Im the one who always goes to comfort others and just hide my pain but the thing is that they don't actually like care about how you feel! You try to fit with everyone but you know that there are fake people around you but you still pretend to be friends with them because your bff is friends with them and you don't wanna ruin so you just think about them rather than thinking about yourself
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The 3rd one though. it hits hard tbh! Im the one who always goes to comfort others and just hide my pain but the thing is that they don't actually like care about how you feel! You try to fit with everyone but you know that there are fake people around you but you still pretend to be friends with them because your bff is friends with them and you don't wanna ruin so you just think about them rather than thinking about yourself
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Dylan
as I'm getting older I'm getting more sad and people are trying to help but they don't listening to me. they tried to put me on a easy sleep but they do stuff that makes me more tired. I just got a girlfriend and we're both happy together and that's pretty much been the happiest I've been in a while. I having a lot of meetings and things that talk about my emotions but every time I do that I get more sad.
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as I'm getting older I'm getting more sad and people are trying to help but they don't listening to me. they tried to put me on a easy sleep but they do stuff that makes me more tired. I just got a girlfriend and we're both happy together and that's pretty much been the happiest I've been in a while. I having a lot of meetings and things that talk about my emotions but every time I do that I get more sad.
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Felix
Today it's really a very bad day. I cried all afternoon because I can't get my dream, I don't even know myself anymore I don't feel myself and I don't feel my age. my interests felt boring to me now days don't know what to do in life either. I always cry in the cr and said to myself I'm ok it's fine and smile later I'm alright but my heart feels so heavy: (
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Today it's really a very bad day. I cried all afternoon because I can't get my dream, I don't even know myself anymore I don't feel myself and I don't feel my age. my interests felt boring to me now days don't know what to do in life either. I always cry in the cr and said to myself I'm ok it's fine and smile later I'm alright but my heart feels so heavy: (
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Tay11
coping strategies if your feeling depressed
1. Stay in touch. Don't withdraw from life
2. Be more active. Take up some form of exercise.
3. Face your fears. Don't avoid the things you find difficult.
4. Don't drink too much alcohol. For some people, alcohol can become a problem.
5. Try to eat a healthy diet.
6. Have a routine.
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coping strategies if your feeling depressed
1. Stay in touch. Don't withdraw from life
2. Be more active. Take up some form of exercise.
3. Face your fears. Don't avoid the things you find difficult.
4. Don't drink too much alcohol. For some people, alcohol can become a problem.
5. Try to eat a healthy diet.
6. Have a routine.
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aggravated
I'm scared of admitting or mentioning to others that I have depression because I don't want to make them think that mabye it wasn't all just personality that im not the happy energetic guy that I'm insane. they all like me how the they think the know me I don't want to let them down. thanks phsych2to for giving me courage to speak up
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I'm scared of admitting or mentioning to others that I have depression because I don't want to make them think that mabye it wasn't all just personality that im not the happy energetic guy that I'm insane. they all like me how the they think the know me I don't want to let them down. thanks phsych2to for giving me courage to speak up
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butter
Back in my old school people bully me every single day cause of my difficulty's and people stay away from me and I was always alone even the one person that talked to me told me to get lost and I always feel like crying and if I did they would make fun of me more so I smile to people to hide my tears I guess and always felt depression
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Back in my old school people bully me every single day cause of my difficulty's and people stay away from me and I was always alone even the one person that talked to me told me to get lost and I always feel like crying and if I did they would make fun of me more so I smile to people to hide my tears I guess and always felt depression
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EMILY
Finding help can be challenging for people- for myself too. I blabber my words to people, friends to state that Im not fine and I need their help, but I think I did it too many times for them to think its some kind of humour. School councillors, teachers, Im afraid, afraid they might tell what I tell myself youre overreacting
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Finding help can be challenging for people- for myself too. I blabber my words to people, friends to state that Im not fine and I need their help, but I think I did it too many times for them to think its some kind of humour. School councillors, teachers, Im afraid, afraid they might tell what I tell myself youre overreacting
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Quan
After watching this, my mom basically built me as a depressed person. The tips she gave me were the same as the ones in the video, she would belittle me to make my sister or my relatives laugh. I didn't think about this too much until I really digged into my problems and finally went to someone I can truly trust to talk to.
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After watching this, my mom basically built me as a depressed person. The tips she gave me were the same as the ones in the video, she would belittle me to make my sister or my relatives laugh. I didn't think about this too much until I really digged into my problems and finally went to someone I can truly trust to talk to.
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ANA
This really helped me understand my emotions, I've always listened to other people's emotions and i made them talk about it with me about it because i like to give other people advice and when i feel like this i think that I'm a coward and i don't dare to tell anyone about it. And i always wonder why i feel like this
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This really helped me understand my emotions, I've always listened to other people's emotions and i made them talk about it with me about it because i like to give other people advice and when i feel like this i think that I'm a coward and i don't dare to tell anyone about it. And i always wonder why i feel like this
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Sunbittern
According to some stories that I grew up with, poseidon had depression, but he would hide it. One day, he was seen on the floor, with tears and blood on him. It turns out that he wanted it all to go away and so he comitted sucidide.
? THIS IS FAN MADE. PLEASE, DONT READ IF YOU ARE SCARED OF HORROR?
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According to some stories that I grew up with, poseidon had depression, but he would hide it. One day, he was seen on the floor, with tears and blood on him. It turns out that he wanted it all to go away and so he comitted sucidide.
? THIS IS FAN MADE. PLEASE, DONT READ IF YOU ARE SCARED OF HORROR?
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Midnight
I recently went to a wellness check up and Ive known that I may have been depressed and filled with anxiety but I brushed it aside with these EXACT thoughts but when the doctor informed my mom she gave us a few places to get help and Im headed the right way, but I still feel this way every day.
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I recently went to a wellness check up and Ive known that I may have been depressed and filled with anxiety but I brushed it aside with these EXACT thoughts but when the doctor informed my mom she gave us a few places to get help and Im headed the right way, but I still feel this way every day.
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Angelica
As a diagnosed with severe depression, i really don't remember the last time i smiled or laughed sincerely. And i have people who say HOW can you be depressed if you smile? i can't help to fake a smile, i don't enjoy anything anymore. Sorry for the errors, english is not my first language
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As a diagnosed with severe depression, i really don't remember the last time i smiled or laughed sincerely. And i have people who say HOW can you be depressed if you smile? i can't help to fake a smile, i don't enjoy anything anymore. Sorry for the errors, english is not my first language
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. Unidentified
Umm psych2go is there anything wrong with me if my friends physically hurt me and as Im in excruciating pain I laugh to make it a joke and get them to laugh to the point they think i like to get hurt so they make a point to do it? Im asking for a friend
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Umm psych2go is there anything wrong with me if my friends physically hurt me and as Im in excruciating pain I laugh to make it a joke and get them to laugh to the point they think i like to get hurt so they make a point to do it? Im asking for a friend
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Christina_YJ
This 2 years, I watched psych2go, and Ive been coping well. All I needed is to understand myself better than before so I know how to cope with whatever os troubling me. When I found myself not watching this videos often means that Im okay. Actually okay
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This 2 years, I watched psych2go, and Ive been coping well. All I needed is to understand myself better than before so I know how to cope with whatever os troubling me. When I found myself not watching this videos often means that Im okay. Actually okay
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