5 HIDDEN SIGNS OF DEPRESSION (reupload)
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it all started when my parents split up. It was mild at first. It was mild in fifth grade and I didnt pay much attention to it but when my parents started splitting, I was mad at them, I was wondering why I was here, I decided to watch anime really late at night and Id always eat a lot. That makes me feel like Im fat and I always want to lose that fat. Im trying to get over it by myself, along with another friend whos suffering the same fate. Im trying to be more social and Im trying to smile. And not a fake, Im suffering, kind of smile. A real, meaningful smile. A smile that warms people.
Im trying to help others who have people who are against them. Fending off the people who hate, and backing up the people who will get down when these haters hate them. I want to talk to someone about their feelings and I want to help. These are little steps but theyre helping me get through my depression. Im getting a little perkier now. I used to lock myself in my room and when Id come out, Id have this glare that people call the death glare. That glare tells people to back off of me. It kinda works when bullies try to hurt me. Ill get in my fighting stance, and have this blank expression in my face. When they dont seem frightened, I stare deep into their eyes and make an angrier face the more I think about them. I protect my friends and strangers. Ill even protect the ones who I hate.
Music has also helped me a lot. A group called BTS has indirectly told me to put down the knife, walk away from the road, go hang out with friends and family, be yourself, and most importantly, love yourself. And thats what we all need to do. Love ourselves. If we dont, we havent truly known who we are. So lets fight this together. And one day, we will all be thriving with joy. Whos with me?
Date: 2023-08-20
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Sophie
I know I'm late but i think it's still worth saying. I'm going through depression and it's not being treated at all and i don't have any coping skills. I'm definitely going through the irritability and impatience part. I always kind of have. It's mostly because i barely have the energy to live, so i certainly don't have the energy to have a conversation or listen to someone and especially not being asked a question. Even being asked are you hungry? Or asking for my opinion between two options of what to do will cause me to snap and my response normally is I DON'T KNOW LEAVE ME ALONE because i just don't care and don't have the energy to think for myself right now. I don't think people really get that depression is anger as well as sadness.
Another thing people don't seem to see is that just because I'm okay and energetic one day, it doesn't mean I'm depressed or even suicidal that night or a few hours later.
I once was on antidepressants and had to go on an antibiotic that made my antidepressants stop working. That week i had the chance to feel what depression was again, and then immediately go onto not being depressed because i got off the antibiotics. Then immediately i felt sadness because of hormonal fluctuations. Seeing depression and sadness side by side like that so close together made me realize the huge difference between them. Sadness was like laying in a lake and being sad, drifting down through the water, maybe crying at whatever was making me sad. Depression is violent. Very violent. It feels like being beaten. it feels like being emotionally abused (i guess because you're emotionally abusing yourself) it's terrible.
Thanks to anyone to read all of that. I don't really talk about this much so i don't have the ability to condense it down and not make it a huge vomit of words like that
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I know I'm late but i think it's still worth saying. I'm going through depression and it's not being treated at all and i don't have any coping skills. I'm definitely going through the irritability and impatience part. I always kind of have. It's mostly because i barely have the energy to live, so i certainly don't have the energy to have a conversation or listen to someone and especially not being asked a question. Even being asked are you hungry? Or asking for my opinion between two options of what to do will cause me to snap and my response normally is I DON'T KNOW LEAVE ME ALONE because i just don't care and don't have the energy to think for myself right now. I don't think people really get that depression is anger as well as sadness.
Another thing people don't seem to see is that just because I'm okay and energetic one day, it doesn't mean I'm depressed or even suicidal that night or a few hours later.
I once was on antidepressants and had to go on an antibiotic that made my antidepressants stop working. That week i had the chance to feel what depression was again, and then immediately go onto not being depressed because i got off the antibiotics. Then immediately i felt sadness because of hormonal fluctuations. Seeing depression and sadness side by side like that so close together made me realize the huge difference between them. Sadness was like laying in a lake and being sad, drifting down through the water, maybe crying at whatever was making me sad. Depression is violent. Very violent. It feels like being beaten. it feels like being emotionally abused (i guess because you're emotionally abusing yourself) it's terrible.
Thanks to anyone to read all of that. I don't really talk about this much so i don't have the ability to condense it down and not make it a huge vomit of words like that
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the
I'm SUPER self conscious and hate myself so much inside out, even when I'm alone I try to suck in my stomach (even though my mom says I have a flat stomach) until I see my ribs and try and suck in my ass and flex my thighs so they seem a little smaller and wear looser clothes to hide my body and imagine if I was skinny because I'm really ashamed of my body I just started realizing that I binge and then don't eat anything and drink a shit ton of water to lose weight (never starve yourself) so I have a normal meal when I can stomach it and treat myself once in a while with a digestive cookie (name of the brand) because I know the damage I could if I starve too much so I treat myself sometimes, today I had oatmeal and four cups of water, I'm trying
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I'm SUPER self conscious and hate myself so much inside out, even when I'm alone I try to suck in my stomach (even though my mom says I have a flat stomach) until I see my ribs and try and suck in my ass and flex my thighs so they seem a little smaller and wear looser clothes to hide my body and imagine if I was skinny because I'm really ashamed of my body I just started realizing that I binge and then don't eat anything and drink a shit ton of water to lose weight (never starve yourself) so I have a normal meal when I can stomach it and treat myself once in a while with a digestive cookie (name of the brand) because I know the damage I could if I starve too much so I treat myself sometimes, today I had oatmeal and four cups of water, I'm trying
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NicEXE303
This is literally me, I have all of these signs and people always wonder why I'm not that happy all the time, they ask if I'm fine and I fake a smile and say Yeah! I'm great I always seem to wisper to myself I'm not alright, and if you are wondering no one knows or helps some reason I take it out on friends and my sibling I reason everything they do and fake things and blame it on them for atettion, even self harming yet no one cares and I still decide to live more reasons I always cry when I see something small impact my life I stay away from friends I'm emotionless at school I hate my family I reject everything given to me I don't like getting things I need or want for myself I feel nothing all the time
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This is literally me, I have all of these signs and people always wonder why I'm not that happy all the time, they ask if I'm fine and I fake a smile and say Yeah! I'm great I always seem to wisper to myself I'm not alright, and if you are wondering no one knows or helps some reason I take it out on friends and my sibling I reason everything they do and fake things and blame it on them for atettion, even self harming yet no one cares and I still decide to live more reasons I always cry when I see something small impact my life I stay away from friends I'm emotionless at school I hate my family I reject everything given to me I don't like getting things I need or want for myself I feel nothing all the time
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ningslay
I matched everything in this video but I don't want to self-diagnose. And I would love to see a doctor rn but I can't. I'm only a teenager so how am I gonna go to a doctor? Y'all would probably say that its just a 'part of puberty' but I know it isn't. Being suicidal? Feeling empty when nothing is wrong? Overthinking? Crying myself to sleep? Getting sad with no particular reason? Constantly getting thoughts about suicide? Thinking of a painless way to die? Being so overly self-conscious? Attempting to hang myself on my room? Wanting to buy sleeping pills and drink it all in one go? All of these are 'parts of puberty'? I don't think so.
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I matched everything in this video but I don't want to self-diagnose. And I would love to see a doctor rn but I can't. I'm only a teenager so how am I gonna go to a doctor? Y'all would probably say that its just a 'part of puberty' but I know it isn't. Being suicidal? Feeling empty when nothing is wrong? Overthinking? Crying myself to sleep? Getting sad with no particular reason? Constantly getting thoughts about suicide? Thinking of a painless way to die? Being so overly self-conscious? Attempting to hang myself on my room? Wanting to buy sleeping pills and drink it all in one go? All of these are 'parts of puberty'? I don't think so.
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honk
I don't know if I have depression, I took 2 tests online twice, both said I have severe depression.
Idk if these are symptoms:
1) I always have a moody or emotionless expression
2) late at night, I always feel alone and over think
3) I keep to myself
4) I feel like an outcast and a bad child
5) I used to talk a lot to my school friends online but now I feel like they hate me and in every argument they gang up on me
6) I think I deserve to die
7) I'm scared if people will forget me because I always lose a best friend
8) I'm scared of what my dad says to me
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I don't know if I have depression, I took 2 tests online twice, both said I have severe depression.
Idk if these are symptoms:
1) I always have a moody or emotionless expression
2) late at night, I always feel alone and over think
3) I keep to myself
4) I feel like an outcast and a bad child
5) I used to talk a lot to my school friends online but now I feel like they hate me and in every argument they gang up on me
6) I think I deserve to die
7) I'm scared if people will forget me because I always lose a best friend
8) I'm scared of what my dad says to me
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Joey
Im very, VERY confused. I relate to the first 3, but im still generally really happy without faking it. In fact, it feels like my life has peaked for some reason. Maybe i mistook one or two of them, as i sleep usually 5-7 hours a night, and only eat 2 or 3 meals a day, and i work on improving myself all the time pretty much. And im highly philosophical, analytical and deep in my thoughts. Not sure if its hidden depression or not. I've had depression before, and it definitely doesnt feel like this. Does anyone relate?
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Im very, VERY confused. I relate to the first 3, but im still generally really happy without faking it. In fact, it feels like my life has peaked for some reason. Maybe i mistook one or two of them, as i sleep usually 5-7 hours a night, and only eat 2 or 3 meals a day, and i work on improving myself all the time pretty much. And im highly philosophical, analytical and deep in my thoughts. Not sure if its hidden depression or not. I've had depression before, and it definitely doesnt feel like this. Does anyone relate?
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Coffee
please answer me, I need help.
I need answer
my classnate is so sad and cry in our classroom even in the middle of the lecture and when we ask her, she says its nothing. She is the highest rank in all of the grade 11 but why is she so sad? she has everything and her family is so supportive and loving and also she has a boyfriend and he is so inlove with her and did not cheat on her, she has enough money and can eat 3 times a day? but why? She don't have a reason to be sad
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please answer me, I need help.
I need answer
my classnate is so sad and cry in our classroom even in the middle of the lecture and when we ask her, she says its nothing. She is the highest rank in all of the grade 11 but why is she so sad? she has everything and her family is so supportive and loving and also she has a boyfriend and he is so inlove with her and did not cheat on her, she has enough money and can eat 3 times a day? but why? She don't have a reason to be sad
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Tubi
Recently my friend told me how I change my emotions so quickly. She said U just cried last night and now excited. (I told her I cried that night. I told my mom about my depression. She just said Children can't get depression. She also said don't over react. I snap lot at my parents too. Maybe I am a bit too young for these kind of stuff, I am just a 10 year old.
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Recently my friend told me how I change my emotions so quickly. She said U just cried last night and now excited. (I told her I cried that night. I told my mom about my depression. She just said Children can't get depression. She also said don't over react. I snap lot at my parents too. Maybe I am a bit too young for these kind of stuff, I am just a 10 year old.
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Prajjwal
Its now 3 years i have been dealing with dipression and it seems no end even with medications. Its all started with ocd. My family and friends will never understand why i am sleeping all the time and eating so less. I am in 2nd year of my engineering and still don't know what i am doing. Its so embarrassing and difficult, i dont know what to do now.
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Its now 3 years i have been dealing with dipression and it seems no end even with medications. Its all started with ocd. My family and friends will never understand why i am sleeping all the time and eating so less. I am in 2nd year of my engineering and still don't know what i am doing. Its so embarrassing and difficult, i dont know what to do now.
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Ally
This helped me to understand some things.
I kinda have deppresion, At school im always with a smile on but at home. There is only a few procent of people who has deppresion and go to a teraphist. I can't go either because i think i exagerate too much my feelings. I feel like i am just spoiled and i dont have all of this but. .
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This helped me to understand some things.
I kinda have deppresion, At school im always with a smile on but at home. There is only a few procent of people who has deppresion and go to a teraphist. I can't go either because i think i exagerate too much my feelings. I feel like i am just spoiled and i dont have all of this but. .
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Rin
I mean idk, i dont have time to go on and listen to music and do things to cover my depression and i have irregular sleep thats cause my circadian rhythm is off from working different jobs 56hrs and week and going to school full time. So idk its like im depressed but at the same time i dont have the luxury to take care of it.
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I mean idk, i dont have time to go on and listen to music and do things to cover my depression and i have irregular sleep thats cause my circadian rhythm is off from working different jobs 56hrs and week and going to school full time. So idk its like im depressed but at the same time i dont have the luxury to take care of it.
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LoL
-Grow Up
-People Come and Go
-You can be alone
-Action Speaks Louder Than Words
It's sucks that these were the common advise that I received when I seek help which DOESN'T HELP AT ALL even though it's true.
Depression should be taken seriously, and should not be taken as a trend.
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-Grow Up
-People Come and Go
-You can be alone
-Action Speaks Louder Than Words
It's sucks that these were the common advise that I received when I seek help which DOESN'T HELP AT ALL even though it's true.
Depression should be taken seriously, and should not be taken as a trend.
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rogue
a couple days a go a I was called to the office because one of my teachers found a note that I wrote that was very dark and someone else wrote I want to kill my self on it and the councilor asked if I thought about suicide and the last part didn't even look like my hand writing.
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a couple days a go a I was called to the office because one of my teachers found a note that I wrote that was very dark and someone else wrote I want to kill my self on it and the councilor asked if I thought about suicide and the last part didn't even look like my hand writing.
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Crazy
I had a friend that was always laughing and making us laugh. He was so funny but little did we know he was suffering on the inside. He hid it so well. We didnt know till it was too late. He left us before we could even help. Its a bad sickness. He was a great kid.
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I had a friend that was always laughing and making us laugh. He was so funny but little did we know he was suffering on the inside. He hid it so well. We didnt know till it was too late. He left us before we could even help. Its a bad sickness. He was a great kid.
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Ozaru
I have that type of depression i hate myself so much and its getting worse i try to reach out but my fam and my husband say here she goes aguin so i stoped reaching out the only thing that keeps me going is my twin girls and they give me more strength
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I have that type of depression i hate myself so much and its getting worse i try to reach out but my fam and my husband say here she goes aguin so i stoped reaching out the only thing that keeps me going is my twin girls and they give me more strength
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GalaxyBun
I've always told myself, I can't have depression. I'm too happy for that. I've had eating and sleeping irregularities for years, but more recently have developed signs. Idk if I do or if I don't and I'm just overthinking. Any helpful advice maybe?
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I've always told myself, I can't have depression. I'm too happy for that. I've had eating and sleeping irregularities for years, but more recently have developed signs. Idk if I do or if I don't and I'm just overthinking. Any helpful advice maybe?
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BrotherTree1
Ugh I can relate so much. I have all of these thought, emotional and behavioural symptoms. I can say with full honesty. I am dying inside and finding no point. Everything is like a broken record and I'm back on the same treadmill everyday.
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Ugh I can relate so much. I have all of these thought, emotional and behavioural symptoms. I can say with full honesty. I am dying inside and finding no point. Everything is like a broken record and I'm back on the same treadmill everyday.
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Darlings
I have all of these signs, but i still don 't think i'm depressed. On all test that i do they say: you are depressed! Get help!
But i don't understand why! Is there anyone who has the same thing? If you do, can you help me?
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I have all of these signs, but i still don 't think i'm depressed. On all test that i do they say: you are depressed! Get help!
But i don't understand why! Is there anyone who has the same thing? If you do, can you help me?
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Maddie
I always felt like I had depression and I am very scared to tell anyone that I am feeling this way because I think they will not like me anymore. I told my parents and I they said I'm fine but they dont know what's in my head.
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I always felt like I had depression and I am very scared to tell anyone that I am feeling this way because I think they will not like me anymore. I told my parents and I they said I'm fine but they dont know what's in my head.
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Saracatunga
you know I have most of these symptoms, but I don't want to sound like those people who say oh yes my friend, I have depression, I cut myself and everything you know, I don't want to be a dramatic person. someone else?
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you know I have most of these symptoms, but I don't want to sound like those people who say oh yes my friend, I have depression, I cut myself and everything you know, I don't want to be a dramatic person. someone else?
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Vandana
I have an arrange marriage, i am into depression since i got married, its 3 years, i tried to convince him that i needed help but, all i got is that i am faking it and its all a artificial problem.
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I have an arrange marriage, i am into depression since i got married, its 3 years, i tried to convince him that i needed help but, all i got is that i am faking it and its all a artificial problem.
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Rin
I want to tell my family about what I'm feeling but i remembered when they heard my cousin had depression. they just laughed at it and ignored it. So they will probably do the same to me.
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I want to tell my family about what I'm feeling but i remembered when they heard my cousin had depression. they just laughed at it and ignored it. So they will probably do the same to me.
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Leanne
A few years ago I had my first depressive episode and looking back at it, I really struggled and was never able to hide how I felt inside. Now it seems like Im an expert at it.
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A few years ago I had my first depressive episode and looking back at it, I really struggled and was never able to hide how I felt inside. Now it seems like Im an expert at it.
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Joshua
If you see someone that is sad and you ask if they are okay and they say they are fine, the probably aren't especially if you see them crying or alone
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If you see someone that is sad and you ask if they are okay and they say they are fine, the probably aren't especially if you see them crying or alone
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