5 Signs You Have Emotional Trauma (And How To Heal)
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Date: 2023-08-20
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Mareli
Trigger warning: mentions of S/H, manipulation, s/a, mental abuse, unfair treatment from Freshman to Junior year, suicide attempts, and becoming a monster as a result of everything. Please do not read if any of this will send you towards a dark space. Read other comments as my story is not easy to read.
Freshman year a person took advantage of my status of not being liked by the majority for being scary in school and they did what they wanted with me because I expressed I had crush on them.
Sophomore year I was in a relationship where my partner only treated me the same as their own friends. I expressed this during the time of our relationship a few times and it still didn't change them. And would want something specific everytime we were together. When I finally broke off that relationship it felt good that I was freed from it. But then the guilt of ending it hit me and I felt like I shouldn't have ended it.
Junior year I got into the most toxic relationship I ever had. I had to please my partner, I had to make sure they were always okay, I had to act as their therapist, I would have to talk them down from hurting themselves, they threatened me anytime I wanted to end the relationship and I couldn't have my own life anymore since they relied on me so much. I hung out with an old friend and enjoyed my time with this person and confided in someone that I remembered the time I liked my old friend I met again. They told the person I was in the relationship with during Junior year and it finally ended that terrible experience.
Senior year I finally got into the most healthy relationship and only ended up becoming the worst parts of my previous relationships and the person who hurt me the most in my Freshman year. I ruined their life and I still feel guilty for every single thing I did. I lied, I cheated, I wasn't always there for them, I didn't put effort into the relationship, I was just a monster by then. It haunts me what I did to that partner and how their life is now because of my actions and not thinking before acting.
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Trigger warning: mentions of S/H, manipulation, s/a, mental abuse, unfair treatment from Freshman to Junior year, suicide attempts, and becoming a monster as a result of everything. Please do not read if any of this will send you towards a dark space. Read other comments as my story is not easy to read.
Freshman year a person took advantage of my status of not being liked by the majority for being scary in school and they did what they wanted with me because I expressed I had crush on them.
Sophomore year I was in a relationship where my partner only treated me the same as their own friends. I expressed this during the time of our relationship a few times and it still didn't change them. And would want something specific everytime we were together. When I finally broke off that relationship it felt good that I was freed from it. But then the guilt of ending it hit me and I felt like I shouldn't have ended it.
Junior year I got into the most toxic relationship I ever had. I had to please my partner, I had to make sure they were always okay, I had to act as their therapist, I would have to talk them down from hurting themselves, they threatened me anytime I wanted to end the relationship and I couldn't have my own life anymore since they relied on me so much. I hung out with an old friend and enjoyed my time with this person and confided in someone that I remembered the time I liked my old friend I met again. They told the person I was in the relationship with during Junior year and it finally ended that terrible experience.
Senior year I finally got into the most healthy relationship and only ended up becoming the worst parts of my previous relationships and the person who hurt me the most in my Freshman year. I ruined their life and I still feel guilty for every single thing I did. I lied, I cheated, I wasn't always there for them, I didn't put effort into the relationship, I was just a monster by then. It haunts me what I did to that partner and how their life is now because of my actions and not thinking before acting.
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Hisato
I dont usually leave comments but I believe doing this will help me out in the long run. At this moment writing this comment, I am having a hard time sleeping because realization from past and recent trauma have decided to hit me all at once and its making me want to finally do something to finally heal.
First major event: mom dies when I was 6 years old and now I'm soon to be 22 in a few months, I have no idea how to feel about it now compared to back then because it's been so long to the point it's just normal
Second major event: in high school I was going through a rough home life and leaned on someone for help who slowly started become abusive in all forms. 7 years of my life wasted on keeping them from doing harm on themself and others which was finally able to peacefully leave with the help of my fiance and a friend
Third major event: during the 7 years, I dated/broke up with my partner, now fiance, twice back in high school. 5 years later we discovered the love never actually faded and got back together/engaged. My dad does NOT like my fiance, and to make things worse he doesnt know we're actually engaged. The day I was planning to tell him, my great grandma dies and since that day I have not been able to bring it up.
Current event: last month on the day i decided to say something, someone else dies and since that day all sorts of problems have been happening one after another. In ONE month I went from confident and finally ready to say something only to fall back even further. Not only did my entire confidence plummet, my entire self just feels like its disappearing fast and I need to do something NOW before I lose myself completely again.
Writing this made me feel better and calm down. I dont expect replies if anyone reads this and I apologize for ranting like this.
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I dont usually leave comments but I believe doing this will help me out in the long run. At this moment writing this comment, I am having a hard time sleeping because realization from past and recent trauma have decided to hit me all at once and its making me want to finally do something to finally heal.
First major event: mom dies when I was 6 years old and now I'm soon to be 22 in a few months, I have no idea how to feel about it now compared to back then because it's been so long to the point it's just normal
Second major event: in high school I was going through a rough home life and leaned on someone for help who slowly started become abusive in all forms. 7 years of my life wasted on keeping them from doing harm on themself and others which was finally able to peacefully leave with the help of my fiance and a friend
Third major event: during the 7 years, I dated/broke up with my partner, now fiance, twice back in high school. 5 years later we discovered the love never actually faded and got back together/engaged. My dad does NOT like my fiance, and to make things worse he doesnt know we're actually engaged. The day I was planning to tell him, my great grandma dies and since that day I have not been able to bring it up.
Current event: last month on the day i decided to say something, someone else dies and since that day all sorts of problems have been happening one after another. In ONE month I went from confident and finally ready to say something only to fall back even further. Not only did my entire confidence plummet, my entire self just feels like its disappearing fast and I need to do something NOW before I lose myself completely again.
Writing this made me feel better and calm down. I dont expect replies if anyone reads this and I apologize for ranting like this.
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Error.
I used to be in a friend group, and every friend group has that one friend in the beginning that sucks, is rude, selfish, annoying, arrogant, etc etc, and that person was me. After a while I noticed how I was acting and how horrible I was, it hurt me, but most likely not as much as my friends. We were friends for a while until I had a sudden change, they noticed and started to be more distant with me. However I didnt notice, I kept pushing, and pushing, and pushing, until they had enough and left me. Then I realized how horrible I was, I got into a new friend group a year later, but I have constant fear that they are going to leave me. So I kept asking them if I was a good friend, if I was selfish, rude, mean, etc. after a while I realized that my behavior isnt normal and went to this video, this video really helped me. I also watch other videos of yours and it helped me change, and develop in a healthy way. Thank you so much for creating this video, it helped me a lot. Your other videos helped me with depression, self hate, self harm, and more.
Thank you.
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I used to be in a friend group, and every friend group has that one friend in the beginning that sucks, is rude, selfish, annoying, arrogant, etc etc, and that person was me. After a while I noticed how I was acting and how horrible I was, it hurt me, but most likely not as much as my friends. We were friends for a while until I had a sudden change, they noticed and started to be more distant with me. However I didnt notice, I kept pushing, and pushing, and pushing, until they had enough and left me. Then I realized how horrible I was, I got into a new friend group a year later, but I have constant fear that they are going to leave me. So I kept asking them if I was a good friend, if I was selfish, rude, mean, etc. after a while I realized that my behavior isnt normal and went to this video, this video really helped me. I also watch other videos of yours and it helped me change, and develop in a healthy way. Thank you so much for creating this video, it helped me a lot. Your other videos helped me with depression, self hate, self harm, and more.
Thank you.
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Omor
'Self Growth stunted by Fear', I know what it means, and what it means to fear going into relationships that invokes deep emotions. Being alive but not living, they all makes sense.
But there was a time when I was not free enough to see that I am suffering. The storm just felt like weather to me.
And, now, even though it all went wrong, even though I am still not free of them, I see them; I see them.
And, they open up to me and I sometime am able to let them pass.
I know and I feel the pain and exaustion and the ups and downs this process brings, but you should remember that it is all worth it. And, the fact that you are even here, that you are willing to do it, means you do care for you, and you care deeply. Just let this part gradually come to you more and more.
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'Self Growth stunted by Fear', I know what it means, and what it means to fear going into relationships that invokes deep emotions. Being alive but not living, they all makes sense.
But there was a time when I was not free enough to see that I am suffering. The storm just felt like weather to me.
And, now, even though it all went wrong, even though I am still not free of them, I see them; I see them.
And, they open up to me and I sometime am able to let them pass.
I know and I feel the pain and exaustion and the ups and downs this process brings, but you should remember that it is all worth it. And, the fact that you are even here, that you are willing to do it, means you do care for you, and you care deeply. Just let this part gradually come to you more and more.
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Miss
I was in a relationship for 5 years and then 5 months ago I found him ordering clothes for a girl, when I confronted him he misbehaved with me and broke up. He never treated me that way before, it's like I never knew him. He blamed me for the breakup that I doubt too much then yesterday he made his relationship with the girl I doubted him with. I have been crying day and night these 5 months. He didn't let me move onn, he kept sending me I love you or I miss you texts or calls me. I'm not able to process my emotions, I didn't slept whole night, now I feel like throwing up and Im scared to think about it as it will break me even more but I can't stop thinking about it
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I was in a relationship for 5 years and then 5 months ago I found him ordering clothes for a girl, when I confronted him he misbehaved with me and broke up. He never treated me that way before, it's like I never knew him. He blamed me for the breakup that I doubt too much then yesterday he made his relationship with the girl I doubted him with. I have been crying day and night these 5 months. He didn't let me move onn, he kept sending me I love you or I miss you texts or calls me. I'm not able to process my emotions, I didn't slept whole night, now I feel like throwing up and Im scared to think about it as it will break me even more but I can't stop thinking about it
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Shadow
How do you forgive someone who has hurt you by not responding when you call for help? I had a friend I considered one of my closest really hurt me recently. I was going through mental struggles, and I thought reaching out to them would help, even if it was to just talk/play video games. But, they never responded. They saw my message, as semi-vague as they were. They just didn't feel as though they knew what to say to help. This is a person I've been there for multiple times in the past. And I can't help but feel hurt. But I also don't want to lose that friendship.
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How do you forgive someone who has hurt you by not responding when you call for help? I had a friend I considered one of my closest really hurt me recently. I was going through mental struggles, and I thought reaching out to them would help, even if it was to just talk/play video games. But, they never responded. They saw my message, as semi-vague as they were. They just didn't feel as though they knew what to say to help. This is a person I've been there for multiple times in the past. And I can't help but feel hurt. But I also don't want to lose that friendship.
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Sundance
I admit that I just am so very weary and tired of feeling defeated. Unbearable getting through my sad days, all I do is sleep and then feel guilty disappointed in myself. Definitely feel that something is terribly wrong with me. I have a much around me supportive family a few true caring friends yet feeling alone and miserable. No matter what I attempt to do, its not working. Lately I dont even want to wake up
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I admit that I just am so very weary and tired of feeling defeated. Unbearable getting through my sad days, all I do is sleep and then feel guilty disappointed in myself. Definitely feel that something is terribly wrong with me. I have a much around me supportive family a few true caring friends yet feeling alone and miserable. No matter what I attempt to do, its not working. Lately I dont even want to wake up
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Lloyd
I experience this right now when I met I girl who doesn't know what kind of bad words they give to me and feeling of others when I search it behavior its narcistic attention seeker now they don't know that I am in traumatic experience in my parents
And for me be careful the words that you say because it can destroy feelings of kind hearted people
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I experience this right now when I met I girl who doesn't know what kind of bad words they give to me and feeling of others when I search it behavior its narcistic attention seeker now they don't know that I am in traumatic experience in my parents
And for me be careful the words that you say because it can destroy feelings of kind hearted people
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TessaLynn
You are worth the time and effort.
Ouch. not in a bad way, but that hit extremely close to home. I am incapable of admitting that to myself. I didn't feel loved because despite growing up in a home that sheltered me with plenty of money, I can't recall even once on one hand that I was told I love you.
Looking back, it. hurts, a lot.
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You are worth the time and effort.
Ouch. not in a bad way, but that hit extremely close to home. I am incapable of admitting that to myself. I didn't feel loved because despite growing up in a home that sheltered me with plenty of money, I can't recall even once on one hand that I was told I love you.
Looking back, it. hurts, a lot.
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Donald
Seriously appreciate all of the stuff youve done and put out. Been one of the biggest mental helps in my life along with music and driving. Finally feel rather astonishing mental clarity, a lot of your videos help to feel a lot more heard and understood than Id ever been throughout my entire life. Means more than words could ever express
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Seriously appreciate all of the stuff youve done and put out. Been one of the biggest mental helps in my life along with music and driving. Finally feel rather astonishing mental clarity, a lot of your videos help to feel a lot more heard and understood than Id ever been throughout my entire life. Means more than words could ever express
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THEGAMING
I was abused from age 7 and up then the girl I just broke up with after 3 years she cheated and rubbed it in my face someone who I thought was my best friend and the toxicness I went thru is painful. I've lost so Manny close friends and family growing up it all comes back and I find myself literally stuck in the dark so many times.
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I was abused from age 7 and up then the girl I just broke up with after 3 years she cheated and rubbed it in my face someone who I thought was my best friend and the toxicness I went thru is painful. I've lost so Manny close friends and family growing up it all comes back and I find myself literally stuck in the dark so many times.
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Guttural
5: 52 I am worth the time and effort, but not da money. After watching this It seems there must be something Im not addressing, but Ill just rot away before I have to ask my folks to help me get with a professional (thanks to our economy I still have to rely on my parents for financial aid despite being 20 and having a good job.
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5: 52 I am worth the time and effort, but not da money. After watching this It seems there must be something Im not addressing, but Ill just rot away before I have to ask my folks to help me get with a professional (thanks to our economy I still have to rely on my parents for financial aid despite being 20 and having a good job.
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Piotr
Maybe I am worth time, but I don't have it. In every year I grow older, older without ever being able to make friends, without ever being on a date, without ever being in relationship. I need to heal, emotional wounds, me myself and I fast, preferably this year. I know that unfortunately this is impossible.
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Maybe I am worth time, but I don't have it. In every year I grow older, older without ever being able to make friends, without ever being on a date, without ever being in relationship. I need to heal, emotional wounds, me myself and I fast, preferably this year. I know that unfortunately this is impossible.
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Panthera
ive endet a hurtfull realtionship about 4 months ago, and it still hurts a lot. Im quite lucky to have someone to talk about this now. Its a girl ive met some years ago and had a crush on. She just admited that she's in love with me after reaching out to me for making out.
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ive endet a hurtfull realtionship about 4 months ago, and it still hurts a lot. Im quite lucky to have someone to talk about this now. Its a girl ive met some years ago and had a crush on. She just admited that she's in love with me after reaching out to me for making out.
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Shallibodhran
Being alive but not living has been by state of being for the last 7 years. Even after counselling, medication and work occupational therapy. After a while, it takes its toll. Is it even WORTH an ongoing search to fix things?
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Being alive but not living has been by state of being for the last 7 years. Even after counselling, medication and work occupational therapy. After a while, it takes its toll. Is it even WORTH an ongoing search to fix things?
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Izzu
Idk why I'm here lol
But have you ever been in a situation where there is no light at the end of it all? In the end, you have no choice but to train your eyes to see in the dark than look for light.
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Idk why I'm here lol
But have you ever been in a situation where there is no light at the end of it all? In the end, you have no choice but to train your eyes to see in the dark than look for light.
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Fairly
I am being broken 4 years and I have destroy myself and start damaging me so bad lost everything but I dont know how to heal I feel rejected every day he compliments another women I feel worthless
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I am being broken 4 years and I have destroy myself and start damaging me so bad lost everything but I dont know how to heal I feel rejected every day he compliments another women I feel worthless
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MrPhantomBanana
i was a rebound. in hindsight i shud of seen the signs. i also have to work with her. the pain is almost unbearable. everytime i see her i feel like i reset. i dont wana feel anymore
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i was a rebound. in hindsight i shud of seen the signs. i also have to work with her. the pain is almost unbearable. everytime i see her i feel like i reset. i dont wana feel anymore
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Exlnaa
After my dad passed away a few years ago, I've noticed a significant change in my emotional responses. Even when my grandmother died, I didn't experience any intense emotions like I used to
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After my dad passed away a few years ago, I've noticed a significant change in my emotional responses. Even when my grandmother died, I didn't experience any intense emotions like I used to
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Seema
Nicely explained! For ones who are suffering from any kind of emotional trauma then Don't worry Planet Ayurveda has Calm easy capsules. You can take them and observe wonderful results.
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Nicely explained! For ones who are suffering from any kind of emotional trauma then Don't worry Planet Ayurveda has Calm easy capsules. You can take them and observe wonderful results.
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Saiyan
Today is 2. 5 year has been passed since i got traumatized by that incident but still i am living like burden this meaningless life
Pls reply me if anyone of yoi can help me
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Today is 2. 5 year has been passed since i got traumatized by that incident but still i am living like burden this meaningless life
Pls reply me if anyone of yoi can help me
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Lonely
You cant stop replaying the situation over and over again. thats exzqctly what i just did 5 mins qgo and the bed in this looks like mine. like a lot. soo hehehe fun
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You cant stop replaying the situation over and over again. thats exzqctly what i just did 5 mins qgo and the bed in this looks like mine. like a lot. soo hehehe fun
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Kat
I grew of seeing my dad abusive my mom when I was younger. It really ruined me for life. Trying to get passed it althought it was years ago. It gave me serious ptsd
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I grew of seeing my dad abusive my mom when I was younger. It really ruined me for life. Trying to get passed it althought it was years ago. It gave me serious ptsd
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Cindy
I am not feeling so great. I have an emotional wound (heartbreak ) i feel lost since Alyssa left cr-7. It feels like i am here but not here. I am not feeling well
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I am not feeling so great. I have an emotional wound (heartbreak ) i feel lost since Alyssa left cr-7. It feels like i am here but not here. I am not feeling well
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LxRaider
Being alone for all of the pandemic, really messed me up, I try so hard to find motivation but I just live in survival mode, doing nothing every day
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Being alone for all of the pandemic, really messed me up, I try so hard to find motivation but I just live in survival mode, doing nothing every day
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