7 Unknown Childhood Trauma Triggers
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Date: 2023-08-20
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DreamSMP
This whole video just put the things that I couldnt explain into words. There was a certain deodarant that my uncle used to wear (he was the main cause of my trauma) and my aunt's new boyfriend wore it once, and my memories came flooding in before I could process what the smell even was. I get memories when people shout, even if it isn't directed at me. I'm now in secondary school, so there will be a lot more shouting, so therefore I feel stressed and anxious more as well. When we drive past an area that looks familiar, memories come back. I avoid help wherever I can so that they don't think I'm weak or pathetic, since that was what i was called when i needed it. I absolutely will not engage with conflict, as I get scared and anxious at the person that is conflicting with me. Some beauty videos or people with makeup and showy clothing on social media makes me more prone to intrusive and su! c! dal thoughts, and being reminded that I'm a failure, since I'm not like normal girls, or just normal people in general. I don't like makeup, i don't like dressing up, and i don't interact with people so i only have one good friend. All of my relationships have ended because my exes think I'm too introverted, or they've just made excuses, saying that they wanna focus on schoolwork or they are trying to protect me from their friends, only to get another girlfriend literally a week later (no exaggeration) and one even cheated on me. I feel like I need a boyfriend so then I feel good about myself since I have someone that I know truly loves me. My aunt and uncle's birthdays have just passed, and seeing the date on that day made me upset and angry. My reaction to trauma is mainly anger, so i just go silent and try to hold it in. People also dont listen to me at all, and since I'm in foster care and have just gotten out of my traumatic situation, the biggest thing I need right now is someone that listens to me. My social workers don't listen to me, my siblings find it awkward when I try to start this type of conversation, and I'm scared to tell people in my class, and my friend, because I dont want them to dislike me. I'm getting an advocate - basically someone that will listen to what you have to say and voice them - and i couldn't be happier. I'm working on my insecurities, anxiety and social anxiety, and I have a thing that I'm starting to do where I move around a lot when I'm stressed or upset, and I'm working on that. Hopefully I'll get there: ) And I've just realised how long this is Thanks if you read this whole thing, at least someone cares about what i have to say, that makes me feel good
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This whole video just put the things that I couldnt explain into words. There was a certain deodarant that my uncle used to wear (he was the main cause of my trauma) and my aunt's new boyfriend wore it once, and my memories came flooding in before I could process what the smell even was. I get memories when people shout, even if it isn't directed at me. I'm now in secondary school, so there will be a lot more shouting, so therefore I feel stressed and anxious more as well. When we drive past an area that looks familiar, memories come back. I avoid help wherever I can so that they don't think I'm weak or pathetic, since that was what i was called when i needed it. I absolutely will not engage with conflict, as I get scared and anxious at the person that is conflicting with me. Some beauty videos or people with makeup and showy clothing on social media makes me more prone to intrusive and su! c! dal thoughts, and being reminded that I'm a failure, since I'm not like normal girls, or just normal people in general. I don't like makeup, i don't like dressing up, and i don't interact with people so i only have one good friend. All of my relationships have ended because my exes think I'm too introverted, or they've just made excuses, saying that they wanna focus on schoolwork or they are trying to protect me from their friends, only to get another girlfriend literally a week later (no exaggeration) and one even cheated on me. I feel like I need a boyfriend so then I feel good about myself since I have someone that I know truly loves me. My aunt and uncle's birthdays have just passed, and seeing the date on that day made me upset and angry. My reaction to trauma is mainly anger, so i just go silent and try to hold it in. People also dont listen to me at all, and since I'm in foster care and have just gotten out of my traumatic situation, the biggest thing I need right now is someone that listens to me. My social workers don't listen to me, my siblings find it awkward when I try to start this type of conversation, and I'm scared to tell people in my class, and my friend, because I dont want them to dislike me. I'm getting an advocate - basically someone that will listen to what you have to say and voice them - and i couldn't be happier. I'm working on my insecurities, anxiety and social anxiety, and I have a thing that I'm starting to do where I move around a lot when I'm stressed or upset, and I'm working on that. Hopefully I'll get there: ) And I've just realised how long this is Thanks if you read this whole thing, at least someone cares about what i have to say, that makes me feel good
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DreamSMP
This whole video just put the things that I couldnt explain into words. There was a certain deodarant that my uncle used to wear (he was the main cause of my trauma) and my aunt's new boyfriend wore it once, and my memories came flooding in before I could process what the smell even was. I get memories when people shout, even if it isn't directed at me. I'm now in secondary school, so there will be a lot more shouting, so therefore I feel stressed and anxious more as well. When we drive past an area that looks familiar, memories come back. I avoid help wherever I can so that they don't think I'm weak or pathetic, since that was what i was called when i needed it. I absolutely will not engage with conflict, as I get scared and anxious at the person that is conflicting with me. Some beauty videos or people with makeup and showy clothing on social media makes me more prone to intrusive and su! c! dal thoughts, and being reminded that I'm a failure, since I'm not like normal girls, or just normal people in general. I don't like makeup, i don't like dressing up, and i don't interact with people so i only have one good friend. All of my relationships have ended because my exes think I'm too introverted, or they've just made excuses, saying that they wanna focus on schoolwork or they are trying to protect me from their friends, only to get another girlfriend literally a week later (no exaggeration) and one even cheated on me. I feel like I need a boyfriend so then I feel good about myself since I have someone that I know truly loves me. My aunt and uncle's birthdays have just passed, and seeing the date on that day made me upset and angry. My reaction to trauma is mainly anger, so i just go silent and try to hold it in. People also dont listen to me at all, and since I'm in foster care and have just gotten out of my traumatic situation, the biggest thing I need right now is someone that listens to me. My social workers don't listen to me, my siblings find it awkward when I try to start this type of conversation, and I'm scared to tell people in my class, and my friend, because I dont want them to dislike me. I'm getting an advocate - basically someone that will listen to what you have to say and voice them - and i couldn't be happier. I'm working on my insecurities, anxiety and social anxiety, and I have a thing that I'm starting to do where I move around a lot when I'm stressed or upset, and I'm working on that. Hopefully I'll get there: ) And I've just realised how long this is Thanks if you read this whole thing, at least someone cares about what i have to say, that makes me feel good
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This whole video just put the things that I couldnt explain into words. There was a certain deodarant that my uncle used to wear (he was the main cause of my trauma) and my aunt's new boyfriend wore it once, and my memories came flooding in before I could process what the smell even was. I get memories when people shout, even if it isn't directed at me. I'm now in secondary school, so there will be a lot more shouting, so therefore I feel stressed and anxious more as well. When we drive past an area that looks familiar, memories come back. I avoid help wherever I can so that they don't think I'm weak or pathetic, since that was what i was called when i needed it. I absolutely will not engage with conflict, as I get scared and anxious at the person that is conflicting with me. Some beauty videos or people with makeup and showy clothing on social media makes me more prone to intrusive and su! c! dal thoughts, and being reminded that I'm a failure, since I'm not like normal girls, or just normal people in general. I don't like makeup, i don't like dressing up, and i don't interact with people so i only have one good friend. All of my relationships have ended because my exes think I'm too introverted, or they've just made excuses, saying that they wanna focus on schoolwork or they are trying to protect me from their friends, only to get another girlfriend literally a week later (no exaggeration) and one even cheated on me. I feel like I need a boyfriend so then I feel good about myself since I have someone that I know truly loves me. My aunt and uncle's birthdays have just passed, and seeing the date on that day made me upset and angry. My reaction to trauma is mainly anger, so i just go silent and try to hold it in. People also dont listen to me at all, and since I'm in foster care and have just gotten out of my traumatic situation, the biggest thing I need right now is someone that listens to me. My social workers don't listen to me, my siblings find it awkward when I try to start this type of conversation, and I'm scared to tell people in my class, and my friend, because I dont want them to dislike me. I'm getting an advocate - basically someone that will listen to what you have to say and voice them - and i couldn't be happier. I'm working on my insecurities, anxiety and social anxiety, and I have a thing that I'm starting to do where I move around a lot when I'm stressed or upset, and I'm working on that. Hopefully I'll get there: ) And I've just realised how long this is Thanks if you read this whole thing, at least someone cares about what i have to say, that makes me feel good
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Lavenderrose73
Oh wow, anniversaries? Talk about hitting home! Last year, it was 40 years ago (Winter/Spring) that I was classmates with the first boy my heart had ever truly gone out to. One small act of kindness had set the tone permanently, so even after I had gotten carried away and lost any chance to have his friendship, my heart beat just for him no matter how he treated me. I was the unpopular one to begin with, and the one always being teased and verbally degraded by others. He joined in and it hurt, but negative attention was still better than none. I acted out, figuring I had nothing to lose anyway. I left that school, wearing the proverbial scarlet letter. (didnt help that I was catching a lot of grief at home, as well)
Was I _triggered_ by the realization of 40 years past, per se? I guess it just depends on how you define it. I didn't have any panic attacks, but old feelings came back and (on my own time) I've had a few emotional moments. I'm still praying to God that He places us on the same path once again, and that I may have a chance to reconcile with him.
Thankfully, that scarlet letter fades over time, as I managed to patch things up with the one female classmate who was very kind to me, and when I had the audacity to reach out to one of the most prominent school bullies upon seeing his name in MySpace, he had apologized for how he had treated me and told of some of his trials since then. I've never been one for grudges, so I was just glad that we were able to make peace. Besides, of the people that take an express effort to forgive, none of them are classmates.
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Oh wow, anniversaries? Talk about hitting home! Last year, it was 40 years ago (Winter/Spring) that I was classmates with the first boy my heart had ever truly gone out to. One small act of kindness had set the tone permanently, so even after I had gotten carried away and lost any chance to have his friendship, my heart beat just for him no matter how he treated me. I was the unpopular one to begin with, and the one always being teased and verbally degraded by others. He joined in and it hurt, but negative attention was still better than none. I acted out, figuring I had nothing to lose anyway. I left that school, wearing the proverbial scarlet letter. (didnt help that I was catching a lot of grief at home, as well)
Was I _triggered_ by the realization of 40 years past, per se? I guess it just depends on how you define it. I didn't have any panic attacks, but old feelings came back and (on my own time) I've had a few emotional moments. I'm still praying to God that He places us on the same path once again, and that I may have a chance to reconcile with him.
Thankfully, that scarlet letter fades over time, as I managed to patch things up with the one female classmate who was very kind to me, and when I had the audacity to reach out to one of the most prominent school bullies upon seeing his name in MySpace, he had apologized for how he had treated me and told of some of his trials since then. I've never been one for grudges, so I was just glad that we were able to make peace. Besides, of the people that take an express effort to forgive, none of them are classmates.
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Le
Last year it was the start of 8th grade and I was in my first class English. The ac was getting fixed so we in a different classroom. I sat with who I thought were my friends( were not anymore but thats another story) and I needed pencils. The was this TA hes 84 and he is by the pencils. I was 13 at the time keep in mind. So I go to the pencils he turns around and pats my back twice slides down to my lower back near my butt trying to make conversation sliding lower and lower until I grabe the pencils turn the the friends and one of the well call JS. JS turns to me and says YOH looked like you just got mollested. Before and after he kept following me. I didnt tell anyone until a few months later. I told my English teacher when we had a fall carnival only for him to let me know that was SA. I ended up avoiding my teacher until he had called me and made me sit down and write a report letting me know how drastic what happens really was. I feel uncomfortable with people touching my back or any old men around. Ive had panic attacks about touching those pencils. Im still scared till this day. I was forced to tell my parents. And they tried to do what he did so they can understand I busted into tears as they said you did it for attention didnt you and oh hes just old fashioned or Are you suuuurree he wasnt just being nice even stop lying I know your making this up. My dad still ignores tot his day about it. Btw I was in a uniform school so I was wearing a white long sleeve button up with navy blue dress pants and tennis shoe.
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Last year it was the start of 8th grade and I was in my first class English. The ac was getting fixed so we in a different classroom. I sat with who I thought were my friends( were not anymore but thats another story) and I needed pencils. The was this TA hes 84 and he is by the pencils. I was 13 at the time keep in mind. So I go to the pencils he turns around and pats my back twice slides down to my lower back near my butt trying to make conversation sliding lower and lower until I grabe the pencils turn the the friends and one of the well call JS. JS turns to me and says YOH looked like you just got mollested. Before and after he kept following me. I didnt tell anyone until a few months later. I told my English teacher when we had a fall carnival only for him to let me know that was SA. I ended up avoiding my teacher until he had called me and made me sit down and write a report letting me know how drastic what happens really was. I feel uncomfortable with people touching my back or any old men around. Ive had panic attacks about touching those pencils. Im still scared till this day. I was forced to tell my parents. And they tried to do what he did so they can understand I busted into tears as they said you did it for attention didnt you and oh hes just old fashioned or Are you suuuurree he wasnt just being nice even stop lying I know your making this up. My dad still ignores tot his day about it. Btw I was in a uniform school so I was wearing a white long sleeve button up with navy blue dress pants and tennis shoe.
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Eri-chan
My nana passed away several years ago but her death still haunts me, I witnessed her being taken to the hospital when she died, we still celebrate her birthday and go to my aunts house which is really hard. I never want to go over because I makes me have to suppress my emotions but feel like if I dont go, Im being selfish. I have found ways to cope such as going into little space, which has helped, but I feel like her death will never stop haunting me.
At school lots of bizarre stuff has happened in a span of a month. Fire alarm going off(real, intruder alarm that was a false alarm but lots of people had mental breakdowns, and multiple deaths in our school (1-3. Im currently going into my junior year btw.
I feel like my mental health is getting worse (I dont even know if I have ptsd from her death) even tho age regression is helping me, its not enough
This is the first time I have even said something about having trauma from my nana death, I never have even told my parents that I have trauma from her death, they dont suspect anything since I suppress my emotions. Im also semi-emotionless, like I cant feel true happiness, its always fake smile, but I can kinda feel sad/angry. The thing that hurts me by me being emotionless, I cant cry, I couldnt even cry when she died, I couldnt cry when my sister was in hospital for something serious
Also another trauma would be abandonment, my sister left the house/ran away, without saying anything. I worry that everyone in my family will eventually abandon me too
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My nana passed away several years ago but her death still haunts me, I witnessed her being taken to the hospital when she died, we still celebrate her birthday and go to my aunts house which is really hard. I never want to go over because I makes me have to suppress my emotions but feel like if I dont go, Im being selfish. I have found ways to cope such as going into little space, which has helped, but I feel like her death will never stop haunting me.
At school lots of bizarre stuff has happened in a span of a month. Fire alarm going off(real, intruder alarm that was a false alarm but lots of people had mental breakdowns, and multiple deaths in our school (1-3. Im currently going into my junior year btw.
I feel like my mental health is getting worse (I dont even know if I have ptsd from her death) even tho age regression is helping me, its not enough
This is the first time I have even said something about having trauma from my nana death, I never have even told my parents that I have trauma from her death, they dont suspect anything since I suppress my emotions. Im also semi-emotionless, like I cant feel true happiness, its always fake smile, but I can kinda feel sad/angry. The thing that hurts me by me being emotionless, I cant cry, I couldnt even cry when she died, I couldnt cry when my sister was in hospital for something serious
Also another trauma would be abandonment, my sister left the house/ran away, without saying anything. I worry that everyone in my family will eventually abandon me too
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-moss-
I always end up wondering if its not just anxiety disorder that I have because it wasnt just overwhelming anxiety I felt. I would punish myself mentally if I did anything wrong (ex: telling myself I dont deserve living, telling myself I am a horrible person, that Im selfish. I wasnt allowed to cry infront of others, I distanced myself from those around me. It only got worse from there. In 2020 I experienced overwhelming suicidal thoughts but was too scared to do anything about it because I didnt truly want to die but I didnt want to be alive either. I experienced a very abusive friendship for 3 years. She wouldnt let me contact anyone but her if she could help it, if I ever confronted her about her behavior she would gaslight me into thinking it was my fault and would unfriend me for a day before texting me again to tell me shes sorry. We would argue constantly and my family was getting concerned about our relationship. She convinced me I was the problem and that I was selfish. I didnt realize then but she genuinely traumatized me. I would have an anxiety attack any time someone would text me my name in all lowercase and any time someone would tell me we need to talk. I also think I traumatized myself with my words of self hatred and stuff but I also feel like I have no right to feel upset of traumatized
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I always end up wondering if its not just anxiety disorder that I have because it wasnt just overwhelming anxiety I felt. I would punish myself mentally if I did anything wrong (ex: telling myself I dont deserve living, telling myself I am a horrible person, that Im selfish. I wasnt allowed to cry infront of others, I distanced myself from those around me. It only got worse from there. In 2020 I experienced overwhelming suicidal thoughts but was too scared to do anything about it because I didnt truly want to die but I didnt want to be alive either. I experienced a very abusive friendship for 3 years. She wouldnt let me contact anyone but her if she could help it, if I ever confronted her about her behavior she would gaslight me into thinking it was my fault and would unfriend me for a day before texting me again to tell me shes sorry. We would argue constantly and my family was getting concerned about our relationship. She convinced me I was the problem and that I was selfish. I didnt realize then but she genuinely traumatized me. I would have an anxiety attack any time someone would text me my name in all lowercase and any time someone would tell me we need to talk. I also think I traumatized myself with my words of self hatred and stuff but I also feel like I have no right to feel upset of traumatized
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Kai
(I know that this was two months ago but I just wanted to make a comment if its alright)
Most of these topics that was went over defiantly reminded me of some dark memories in my childhood and kinda as a teenager too. Some big topics that defiantly reminded me of some dark memories was seeing people get emotionally in front of me, it makes me uncomfortable and it sometimes kinda wants to make me cry as well. Another one is with music because whenever I listen to some certain songs, they can remind me of some times when I couldn't take it and I was really downhill. The last one I don't think is a topic, but it was a big one that happened to me during childhood and now and that is neglect. I get neglected a lot and it affected me so much that I won't ask anyone for help, I find it hard to believe that people are there for me and it makes me think feel like my parents, my friends and anybody doesn't like me or anything. And I don't know if this one counts but manipulation is defiantly something that happened to me as well and it's still happening now sadly. But seeing this video kinda help me understand some of this stuff and it kinda makes me feel comfort in a way.
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(I know that this was two months ago but I just wanted to make a comment if its alright)
Most of these topics that was went over defiantly reminded me of some dark memories in my childhood and kinda as a teenager too. Some big topics that defiantly reminded me of some dark memories was seeing people get emotionally in front of me, it makes me uncomfortable and it sometimes kinda wants to make me cry as well. Another one is with music because whenever I listen to some certain songs, they can remind me of some times when I couldn't take it and I was really downhill. The last one I don't think is a topic, but it was a big one that happened to me during childhood and now and that is neglect. I get neglected a lot and it affected me so much that I won't ask anyone for help, I find it hard to believe that people are there for me and it makes me think feel like my parents, my friends and anybody doesn't like me or anything. And I don't know if this one counts but manipulation is defiantly something that happened to me as well and it's still happening now sadly. But seeing this video kinda help me understand some of this stuff and it kinda makes me feel comfort in a way.
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Mya
I definitely have a conflict trauma, i always say yes to everything im told to do, im scared too say no and end up getting yelled at.
Or id get in lose/lose situations where it doesnt matter what i do, (ex: mother is cleaning up something, i do nothing and get yelled at for not helping when she clearly needed help. Mother is cleaning up, i go to help, gets yelled at because she didnt ask for help)
With the being around emotional people, i also relate. I get silent and just freeze up, not knowing what to do, i feels awkward and i just want to get away, but im scared too just ditch the person.
I also think it could be why i dont understand my own emotions, i cant express how i feel with words, i dont know what feeling i feel, or if im even feeling a feeling.
It makes me feel like im numb, but also very emotional in my own time, when im alone and no one can see.
Thank you if you read through this rant, sorry if i spelt anything wrong or the grammar is bad.
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I definitely have a conflict trauma, i always say yes to everything im told to do, im scared too say no and end up getting yelled at.
Or id get in lose/lose situations where it doesnt matter what i do, (ex: mother is cleaning up something, i do nothing and get yelled at for not helping when she clearly needed help. Mother is cleaning up, i go to help, gets yelled at because she didnt ask for help)
With the being around emotional people, i also relate. I get silent and just freeze up, not knowing what to do, i feels awkward and i just want to get away, but im scared too just ditch the person.
I also think it could be why i dont understand my own emotions, i cant express how i feel with words, i dont know what feeling i feel, or if im even feeling a feeling.
It makes me feel like im numb, but also very emotional in my own time, when im alone and no one can see.
Thank you if you read through this rant, sorry if i spelt anything wrong or the grammar is bad.
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Mystic_Frggy
I cant bring myself to cook certain foods because of a metal spatula. I remember whenever I did something wrong as a child my mom would chase me with a metal spatula as I hid under her bed. Shed try swinging it under to try and hit me with it. Later on in life my parents would fight a lot and when I was 7 I started hiding in a closet and plugging my ears because I hated yelling. Recently my parents have been fighting more often and threatened a divorce twice. Now because I have 2 younger siblings I also have to care for them and try to make sure they have a healthy childhood. My friends also turned their backs on me and with all these emotions in my head I started cutting myself. I told my parents it was our cats but I cant stop cutting with how much is going on in my life. I cant tell anyone because then theyd say Im overreacting or possibly harm me.
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I cant bring myself to cook certain foods because of a metal spatula. I remember whenever I did something wrong as a child my mom would chase me with a metal spatula as I hid under her bed. Shed try swinging it under to try and hit me with it. Later on in life my parents would fight a lot and when I was 7 I started hiding in a closet and plugging my ears because I hated yelling. Recently my parents have been fighting more often and threatened a divorce twice. Now because I have 2 younger siblings I also have to care for them and try to make sure they have a healthy childhood. My friends also turned their backs on me and with all these emotions in my head I started cutting myself. I told my parents it was our cats but I cant stop cutting with how much is going on in my life. I cant tell anyone because then theyd say Im overreacting or possibly harm me.
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Alexis
I was at work yesterday when a song (Red Wine) came on over the speakers. I started feeling nauseous, claustrophobic, and started feeling VERY uncomfortable. I even thought that my father and step mother were in the store and I actually started looking for them only to turn up with nothing! I had to go clean the parking lot and went out as fast as I could, but the customers outside saw my hands visibly shaking. They didn't ask if I was okay, but I sent a message to my best friend telling him that I was ready to throw in the towel and be done with suffering like this (after all, I have suffered worse for eleven years. I haven't heard back from him yet because of things he has going on in his life, but I should hear back from him soon.
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I was at work yesterday when a song (Red Wine) came on over the speakers. I started feeling nauseous, claustrophobic, and started feeling VERY uncomfortable. I even thought that my father and step mother were in the store and I actually started looking for them only to turn up with nothing! I had to go clean the parking lot and went out as fast as I could, but the customers outside saw my hands visibly shaking. They didn't ask if I was okay, but I sent a message to my best friend telling him that I was ready to throw in the towel and be done with suffering like this (after all, I have suffered worse for eleven years. I haven't heard back from him yet because of things he has going on in his life, but I should hear back from him soon.
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(Ghostflower)
When i was younger my mom used to tell me all about her trauma and the pain that her parents gave her. I felt bad for her but it also made me think that my trauma wasnt bad enough for it to be trauma. i told myself that everything that happened to me was not truama but an unfortunate situation and i should be getting over it right now. But i couldnt just get over it. It had a hold on me and wouldn't let go. It took me a longgggg time to heal from it and realize that nobodys trauma is better than others and to stop thinking that my pain was fake bc someone had it a little harder than me.
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When i was younger my mom used to tell me all about her trauma and the pain that her parents gave her. I felt bad for her but it also made me think that my trauma wasnt bad enough for it to be trauma. i told myself that everything that happened to me was not truama but an unfortunate situation and i should be getting over it right now. But i couldnt just get over it. It had a hold on me and wouldn't let go. It took me a longgggg time to heal from it and realize that nobodys trauma is better than others and to stop thinking that my pain was fake bc someone had it a little harder than me.
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Ace
I tried to forget my fathers death honestly I'm glad he's gone but I still have unresolved feelings about my good memories with him I just wish he would just disappear for my mind completely he destroyed my mental health more than he ever built it up ohh and i have major trauma help doesn't exist for me emotions are burdens that's how I see the world
I also do not trust therapist I bet experience put me off therapy forever so there is little to no chance I'll go to a therapist I don't trust them burn you once shame on me burn me twice shame on me burn Me 3 times and I'm just the idiot
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I tried to forget my fathers death honestly I'm glad he's gone but I still have unresolved feelings about my good memories with him I just wish he would just disappear for my mind completely he destroyed my mental health more than he ever built it up ohh and i have major trauma help doesn't exist for me emotions are burdens that's how I see the world
I also do not trust therapist I bet experience put me off therapy forever so there is little to no chance I'll go to a therapist I don't trust them burn you once shame on me burn me twice shame on me burn Me 3 times and I'm just the idiot
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education
5 YES 100% ME I try and fix it rarely and makes it end even worse making me remember something very traumatizing just imagine something throwing a tiny item at something else and it's a game how my brain takes it as a past event like my mom getting pencils crayons scissors maybe erasers and hearing screaming while I sit there frozen crying in tears exactly how I feel that's why the only sports I like are once you don't push into the air with your arms but with your feet because it helps me feel better.
That one thing still happens is anxiety attacks i mean i do have anxiety-
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5 YES 100% ME I try and fix it rarely and makes it end even worse making me remember something very traumatizing just imagine something throwing a tiny item at something else and it's a game how my brain takes it as a past event like my mom getting pencils crayons scissors maybe erasers and hearing screaming while I sit there frozen crying in tears exactly how I feel that's why the only sports I like are once you don't push into the air with your arms but with your feet because it helps me feel better.
That one thing still happens is anxiety attacks i mean i do have anxiety-
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education
I dont open up to people because my mom has a tendency of saying that i can talk to her but shut me down when i tell her how i feel and act like her problems are worse, they are seeing as she has neurological issues (epilepsy) but no one knows if it could be passed to me because my grandmother had neurological issues too. This is why i dont like when people cry or get angry around me because i cant figure out how to help them. I also try to get away from conflict a lot by always saying yes
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I dont open up to people because my mom has a tendency of saying that i can talk to her but shut me down when i tell her how i feel and act like her problems are worse, they are seeing as she has neurological issues (epilepsy) but no one knows if it could be passed to me because my grandmother had neurological issues too. This is why i dont like when people cry or get angry around me because i cant figure out how to help them. I also try to get away from conflict a lot by always saying yes
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-car-
My trauma was really bad to the point that when I used to go to therapy I kept lying to my therapist about problems I have but said I didnt have them, though Im supposed to go back to therapy since I slightly opened up to my doctor and she gave me a list of places to find a therapist
(I only slightly opened and had to immediately go back to therapy, its really bad trauma, but my mom doesnt want to look for a place though since she thinks Im being dramatic)
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My trauma was really bad to the point that when I used to go to therapy I kept lying to my therapist about problems I have but said I didnt have them, though Im supposed to go back to therapy since I slightly opened up to my doctor and she gave me a list of places to find a therapist
(I only slightly opened and had to immediately go back to therapy, its really bad trauma, but my mom doesnt want to look for a place though since she thinks Im being dramatic)
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education
2: 48 when I was a kid I feel like I was neglected in some ways. My parents wouldn't feed me and told me that I just needed water. Keep in mind was almost always drinking something so that wasn't the issue. I have awful anger issues and as a kid especially that is hard to manage my parents just threatened me instead of helping me. My whole familybis pretty dysfunctional and often in fights they resort to hitting us and my dad thinks it's funny
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2: 48 when I was a kid I feel like I was neglected in some ways. My parents wouldn't feed me and told me that I just needed water. Keep in mind was almost always drinking something so that wasn't the issue. I have awful anger issues and as a kid especially that is hard to manage my parents just threatened me instead of helping me. My whole familybis pretty dysfunctional and often in fights they resort to hitting us and my dad thinks it's funny
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Audrey
My parents used to argue a bit when I was about 8-9 and eventually got a divorce when I was 10 but when people argue or fight it makes me anxious or scared because of feeling something bad is gonna happen or somebody raising their voice at me or someone else and absorbing other peoples emotions at camp when I was abt 10 two of my friends started arguing and I yelled at them to stop arguing cause it was making me nervous and scared
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My parents used to argue a bit when I was about 8-9 and eventually got a divorce when I was 10 but when people argue or fight it makes me anxious or scared because of feeling something bad is gonna happen or somebody raising their voice at me or someone else and absorbing other peoples emotions at camp when I was abt 10 two of my friends started arguing and I yelled at them to stop arguing cause it was making me nervous and scared
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NatTheSiren
I've never liked people yelling since it has reminded me of my dad's temper. He's better with it now and I have gotten counciling for my PTSD, stress, and anxiety, but I still can't handle people yelling since I go completely quiet as I curl up in a ball for hours on end, a defense mechanism I've had since I was a kid because I was always afraid of making people upset.
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I've never liked people yelling since it has reminded me of my dad's temper. He's better with it now and I have gotten counciling for my PTSD, stress, and anxiety, but I still can't handle people yelling since I go completely quiet as I curl up in a ball for hours on end, a defense mechanism I've had since I was a kid because I was always afraid of making people upset.
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Annabelle
Also whenever the music video Happy by (I cant remember) but the dog ends up dying from sickness and that played at my school I had a panic attack and ran out of my classroom and outside because I had a dog who died from sickness and we still dont know what happened but it still gets to me. I dont know if this coordinates with the video or not but if so then yeah
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Also whenever the music video Happy by (I cant remember) but the dog ends up dying from sickness and that played at my school I had a panic attack and ran out of my classroom and outside because I had a dog who died from sickness and we still dont know what happened but it still gets to me. I dont know if this coordinates with the video or not but if so then yeah
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Riaazzz
0: 35 for me it was smell, 2 years ago i was revising for a small exam when a sudden smell hit me; a mini flashback came to me i felt oooo so nauseaous and it happened again and again when i figured out what kind of smell triggers it. Sad thing is my brain blocked most of my childhood memories and i'm scared to even figured out what happened to me
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0: 35 for me it was smell, 2 years ago i was revising for a small exam when a sudden smell hit me; a mini flashback came to me i felt oooo so nauseaous and it happened again and again when i figured out what kind of smell triggers it. Sad thing is my brain blocked most of my childhood memories and i'm scared to even figured out what happened to me
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Lyra
Recently I discovered a certain sentence in a certain context can send me into a hysterical crying episode, took me 2 hours to calm down. Something about my teenage years that I had manage to put out of my mind and when my coworker said those 5 words, I just couldn't function anymore. Not sure how I feel about knowing about this trigger.
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Recently I discovered a certain sentence in a certain context can send me into a hysterical crying episode, took me 2 hours to calm down. Something about my teenage years that I had manage to put out of my mind and when my coworker said those 5 words, I just couldn't function anymore. Not sure how I feel about knowing about this trigger.
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Meh
When I watched the one about how some avoid help because they feel helpless and worthless, it reminded me of how my grandmother always said I was helpless and couldn't do anything by myself. I was 7 years old at the time and didn't understand, now I suffer from a lot of different problems and no one except my friends knows about it.
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When I watched the one about how some avoid help because they feel helpless and worthless, it reminded me of how my grandmother always said I was helpless and couldn't do anything by myself. I was 7 years old at the time and didn't understand, now I suffer from a lot of different problems and no one except my friends knows about it.
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Ralph
My problem is
I experience 6 out of 7 of these triggers
But I can't remember anything that could've caused the trauma
I know I'm terrified of hospitals and the reason is probably because I was apparently in and out of the hospital constantly for checkups when I was young yet I can't remember any of the hospital visits
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My problem is
I experience 6 out of 7 of these triggers
But I can't remember anything that could've caused the trauma
I know I'm terrified of hospitals and the reason is probably because I was apparently in and out of the hospital constantly for checkups when I was young yet I can't remember any of the hospital visits
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Sapphiremon
I can say, that the smell trigger is real. When I was 10 or so, I'm 11 now but I had a drink next to my bed, I was half alseep and went to go drink it, I ended up drinking the lilac room spray that was on my desk. Now i cant be in the same room with anything even slightly resembling the sent of lilac it was tramatiseing
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I can say, that the smell trigger is real. When I was 10 or so, I'm 11 now but I had a drink next to my bed, I was half alseep and went to go drink it, I ended up drinking the lilac room spray that was on my desk. Now i cant be in the same room with anything even slightly resembling the sent of lilac it was tramatiseing
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-K.
I always repress my emotions, even when I need to let them out. So I kept on bottling up my emotions and never showed any emotion at all. I feltempty all the time. I guess bottling up all my troubles and emotions may have taken a toll on me. So I had to bestrong. But in reality I wasnt. My emotions are valid regardless.
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I always repress my emotions, even when I need to let them out. So I kept on bottling up my emotions and never showed any emotion at all. I feltempty all the time. I guess bottling up all my troubles and emotions may have taken a toll on me. So I had to bestrong. But in reality I wasnt. My emotions are valid regardless.
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