Facts About Suicide (Please watch)
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Date: 2023-08-20
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Celestia
Those 'Crisis' resources in your description are worthless. I've received dismissive attitudes from all of them.
My family is pushing me to suicide again only 4 days after I got out of a psychiatric hospital wherein I was abused. I contracted pneumonia while there and went to the ER and the attending physician wanted me to get a follow-up appt within 1-3 days; but, no PCP nor Pulmonologist will see me any sooner than 2 months and my insurance is unable to compel any Dr or clinic to see me sooner.
I've tried to find online mental health therapy due to the pneumonia and being unable to go in person, trying all resources available in online searches and the answer is either not taking new patients, not taking my insurance, Medicare panel full, or unaffordable out-of-pocket with my SSDI income. And, again, my insurance is unable to compel any clinician to work with me.
I've reached out to everyone I can think of and am just ignored and disbelieved that in the US in 2023 there really is no help for an elderly, disabled, female on SSDI and Medicare. QALYs and DALYs are actually a thing and when you advocate for yourself trying to get help, you are labelled 'difficult' and no one wants to help you on that basis, too. As proof, I have kept a log of every mental health platform, clinic, and clinician I have reached out to and the result of that contact. I learned a long time ago with my employment as an eligibility technician administering cash aid, foodstamps, and MediCal to always document, document, document.
I am a vested, retiremed employee of the San Diego County Department of Health and Human Services Agency. I worked in Mental Health Services, Social Services, and Childcare Services. I used to help my clients as well as direct them to resources to access help when I was unable to provide specific types of assistance. Now that I'm elderly and disabled, the help is not there for me!
Do not tell me suicide is wrong when death is being chosen for me by family, doctors, and insurance.
Godbotherers need not reply. You do not know my relationship with God. Airy Fairies need not reply. Your toxic positivity is unhelpful and you do not know my relationship with Nature and the LOA.
Yes, I have a negative attitude; because, I'm dealing with a very negative situation and no one, including me, has any solutions to it. I have never been at a loss for solutions before in my life. If anyone does have a solution, they are withholding it, because; they do not care to help a fellow human in need just for the sake of helping.
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Those 'Crisis' resources in your description are worthless. I've received dismissive attitudes from all of them.
My family is pushing me to suicide again only 4 days after I got out of a psychiatric hospital wherein I was abused. I contracted pneumonia while there and went to the ER and the attending physician wanted me to get a follow-up appt within 1-3 days; but, no PCP nor Pulmonologist will see me any sooner than 2 months and my insurance is unable to compel any Dr or clinic to see me sooner.
I've tried to find online mental health therapy due to the pneumonia and being unable to go in person, trying all resources available in online searches and the answer is either not taking new patients, not taking my insurance, Medicare panel full, or unaffordable out-of-pocket with my SSDI income. And, again, my insurance is unable to compel any clinician to work with me.
I've reached out to everyone I can think of and am just ignored and disbelieved that in the US in 2023 there really is no help for an elderly, disabled, female on SSDI and Medicare. QALYs and DALYs are actually a thing and when you advocate for yourself trying to get help, you are labelled 'difficult' and no one wants to help you on that basis, too. As proof, I have kept a log of every mental health platform, clinic, and clinician I have reached out to and the result of that contact. I learned a long time ago with my employment as an eligibility technician administering cash aid, foodstamps, and MediCal to always document, document, document.
I am a vested, retiremed employee of the San Diego County Department of Health and Human Services Agency. I worked in Mental Health Services, Social Services, and Childcare Services. I used to help my clients as well as direct them to resources to access help when I was unable to provide specific types of assistance. Now that I'm elderly and disabled, the help is not there for me!
Do not tell me suicide is wrong when death is being chosen for me by family, doctors, and insurance.
Godbotherers need not reply. You do not know my relationship with God. Airy Fairies need not reply. Your toxic positivity is unhelpful and you do not know my relationship with Nature and the LOA.
Yes, I have a negative attitude; because, I'm dealing with a very negative situation and no one, including me, has any solutions to it. I have never been at a loss for solutions before in my life. If anyone does have a solution, they are withholding it, because; they do not care to help a fellow human in need just for the sake of helping.
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N0WH3RE
There is nothing to heal me, there is noone i can talk to, literally, there is nothing that keeps me here. No loved ones, no family, no joy. I dont have any of these, i cant find friends because they think im weird, if i find friends and talk about my feelings, they leave me because they dont know how to treat me, and because i kind of suck them into my own pain. I just dont know what to do yk. Every day before i go to sleep, i have a knife in my hand and i dont know how long this will continue. if you read this one day, i'm probably not here anymore for a high chance. Everyone who reads this, don't be lazy, dont miss your chances, dont ignore your friends and loved ones, just keep going even if its hard. I know what im saying because that is the reason why i lost everything, i gave up and currently there is nothing that could potentially bring me back on track. Just DONT give up, like i did a long time ago. Call your friends and fam, say them you love them, engage and meet them. not like i did, locking myself up and loosing contact to literally everybody, and now not being able to get in touch with someone at all.
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There is nothing to heal me, there is noone i can talk to, literally, there is nothing that keeps me here. No loved ones, no family, no joy. I dont have any of these, i cant find friends because they think im weird, if i find friends and talk about my feelings, they leave me because they dont know how to treat me, and because i kind of suck them into my own pain. I just dont know what to do yk. Every day before i go to sleep, i have a knife in my hand and i dont know how long this will continue. if you read this one day, i'm probably not here anymore for a high chance. Everyone who reads this, don't be lazy, dont miss your chances, dont ignore your friends and loved ones, just keep going even if its hard. I know what im saying because that is the reason why i lost everything, i gave up and currently there is nothing that could potentially bring me back on track. Just DONT give up, like i did a long time ago. Call your friends and fam, say them you love them, engage and meet them. not like i did, locking myself up and loosing contact to literally everybody, and now not being able to get in touch with someone at all.
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Llama
I feel like nothing anyone does could save me. I feel like I've gone so deep into the void that I can't come out, no matter how many people come to try and pull me out, no matter how many hands come to my aid, no matter how strong they pull. It's gotten to the point where I don't even to grab their hands, and they have to grab me by other parts of my weak body to pull me out, but it's useless. I want to talk to someone, but I know it won't help. I want to go to a therapist, but I don't want to tell my mom. She'll think something's wrong with me. I don't want her to worry. I love her. I know I won't cooperate anyway. I'll be too unmotivated and tired to even try.
I don't want help. I don't want to be happy again. I just want it to end. I want to go back.
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I feel like nothing anyone does could save me. I feel like I've gone so deep into the void that I can't come out, no matter how many people come to try and pull me out, no matter how many hands come to my aid, no matter how strong they pull. It's gotten to the point where I don't even to grab their hands, and they have to grab me by other parts of my weak body to pull me out, but it's useless. I want to talk to someone, but I know it won't help. I want to go to a therapist, but I don't want to tell my mom. She'll think something's wrong with me. I don't want her to worry. I love her. I know I won't cooperate anyway. I'll be too unmotivated and tired to even try.
I don't want help. I don't want to be happy again. I just want it to end. I want to go back.
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Aiakos
i've been suicidal since i've turned 16, my entire life was pain to go through because of childhood trauma, abusive family, losses, i've found someone that gave me a reason to stay, something to fight for, but unfortunally i feel like i can't do this anymore, the pain, the memories cannot be forgotten, but im trying to stay because they truly matter to me, i can't leave them behind after what we've went through together and all what we've fought for, soon im turning 19, and the urge to suicide is getting worst and worst by time, and im trying to distant myself from self harming as much as possible, and i hope i can keep fighting for those who truly love me.
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i've been suicidal since i've turned 16, my entire life was pain to go through because of childhood trauma, abusive family, losses, i've found someone that gave me a reason to stay, something to fight for, but unfortunally i feel like i can't do this anymore, the pain, the memories cannot be forgotten, but im trying to stay because they truly matter to me, i can't leave them behind after what we've went through together and all what we've fought for, soon im turning 19, and the urge to suicide is getting worst and worst by time, and im trying to distant myself from self harming as much as possible, and i hope i can keep fighting for those who truly love me.
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EliasCad
I am a suicide survivor. I have tried commiting suicide 10 times in a duration of 13 years full of pain and misery. Hearing the line You will look back one day and be so proud of yourself hit me hard as I watch this video after I managed to break out of this hell that I was in for 13 years. I truly look back and I am so proud of myself. Now I am 18 years old, experiencing joy and happiness again after more than a decade. If you are struggling with depression for a long time trust me, it's worth it fighting just to be able to feel happy again.
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I am a suicide survivor. I have tried commiting suicide 10 times in a duration of 13 years full of pain and misery. Hearing the line You will look back one day and be so proud of yourself hit me hard as I watch this video after I managed to break out of this hell that I was in for 13 years. I truly look back and I am so proud of myself. Now I am 18 years old, experiencing joy and happiness again after more than a decade. If you are struggling with depression for a long time trust me, it's worth it fighting just to be able to feel happy again.
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corey
this has broken me down into tears. i havent been so upset over something in a very long time. suicide always burns away in my head but thanatophobia and guilt have kept me from commiting to it. life is so hard and being afraid of death and not believing in religions makes it 1000x times harder. it makes it seem completely worthless and that ruins every day almost immediately. but i do want to live. just not this life.
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this has broken me down into tears. i havent been so upset over something in a very long time. suicide always burns away in my head but thanatophobia and guilt have kept me from commiting to it. life is so hard and being afraid of death and not believing in religions makes it 1000x times harder. it makes it seem completely worthless and that ruins every day almost immediately. but i do want to live. just not this life.
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SixPathsSebas
Im 3725 In debt because of college I dont want to go to college I failed and I just gave up I become severely depressed I couldnt sleep at nights and would miss class due to not being able to sleep at night because I would fall asleep I still cannot sleep at night I get paranoid anxious sad I feel empty no matter how tired I am for some reason I feel empty to the point i can feel it in my chest
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Im 3725 In debt because of college I dont want to go to college I failed and I just gave up I become severely depressed I couldnt sleep at nights and would miss class due to not being able to sleep at night because I would fall asleep I still cannot sleep at night I get paranoid anxious sad I feel empty no matter how tired I am for some reason I feel empty to the point i can feel it in my chest
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soylentdean
Hung on for 20 years to take care of my elderly parents and now they're gone. My dog is very old and he'll be gone soon too, and my obligations will be over. I'm getting ready, giving stuff away, tying up loose ends, making the necessary arrangements. I often work on composing my final note. I find it's the only thing that brings me peace and serenity. That's how I know I'm doing the right thing.
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Hung on for 20 years to take care of my elderly parents and now they're gone. My dog is very old and he'll be gone soon too, and my obligations will be over. I'm getting ready, giving stuff away, tying up loose ends, making the necessary arrangements. I often work on composing my final note. I find it's the only thing that brings me peace and serenity. That's how I know I'm doing the right thing.
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education
A few months ago,
i hung myself.
Luckily, i didnt die.
This video, and so many others. They helped so much.
They helped me realize that, its not over. I still have so much life to live. Even if i have nothing to live for. They helped me realize that it will get better. And even if i cant get help now, i can in the future. Its not over, and thats okay. Even if i dont want it to be.
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A few months ago,
i hung myself.
Luckily, i didnt die.
This video, and so many others. They helped so much.
They helped me realize that, its not over. I still have so much life to live. Even if i have nothing to live for. They helped me realize that it will get better. And even if i cant get help now, i can in the future. Its not over, and thats okay. Even if i dont want it to be.
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Buddy
For anyone suffering right now, please know you're not alone. If you left, the people in your life would be devastated. And if you need proof, tell them what you've been going through, and they will help you through it. If they're not the people you want to talk to, talk to me. I'm a very good listener, and I would love to help in any way I can. Please keep fighting, I know you have it in you
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For anyone suffering right now, please know you're not alone. If you left, the people in your life would be devastated. And if you need proof, tell them what you've been going through, and they will help you through it. If they're not the people you want to talk to, talk to me. I'm a very good listener, and I would love to help in any way I can. Please keep fighting, I know you have it in you
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Sylphid
I lost my uncle due to suicide (he hung himself) when he was 40. My mom found him in his room and still has severe depression to this day
Im suicidal but never talked about it to my parents because my mom already had to deal with another suicide victim. I was told how he died when I was 7, so it didnt affect me much back then. 6 years later, god damn it hurts
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I lost my uncle due to suicide (he hung himself) when he was 40. My mom found him in his room and still has severe depression to this day
Im suicidal but never talked about it to my parents because my mom already had to deal with another suicide victim. I was told how he died when I was 7, so it didnt affect me much back then. 6 years later, god damn it hurts
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Roald
I really apreaciated this video, it made me stop worrying about my brother. But not to be that one guy, but why did you mention minorities such as lbgbtqs blacks and latinos as the majorities who commit suicide, but didnt even mention the group that commits 75% of all suicides (which is a big enough number to be included in the video): men?
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I really apreaciated this video, it made me stop worrying about my brother. But not to be that one guy, but why did you mention minorities such as lbgbtqs blacks and latinos as the majorities who commit suicide, but didnt even mention the group that commits 75% of all suicides (which is a big enough number to be included in the video): men?
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Cameron
Im just so tired. I just want to fly away. Your voice though, the sincerity in it, was beautiful. I felt accepted for a moment. Having these thoughts and ideations lately just keep getting worse. Everything is so overwhelming and im tired of pushing it down, crying, just being a ticking time bomb.
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Im just so tired. I just want to fly away. Your voice though, the sincerity in it, was beautiful. I felt accepted for a moment. Having these thoughts and ideations lately just keep getting worse. Everything is so overwhelming and im tired of pushing it down, crying, just being a ticking time bomb.
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Surg
A positive outlook isn't going to change the fact that I despise my job, that I lose every friend I make and that i am financially unstable. I'm looking at an eviction in just a few weeks. There is nothing to stick around for. Every time I hope something will change, it all gets so much worse.
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A positive outlook isn't going to change the fact that I despise my job, that I lose every friend I make and that i am financially unstable. I'm looking at an eviction in just a few weeks. There is nothing to stick around for. Every time I hope something will change, it all gets so much worse.
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Perrie
please dont give up, and i know your tired well. its too late and im not tried, im annoyed at the fact that when i try to get help, no one will. when your told by diffrent professionals that your a lost cause and they cant help. that right there is gut renching.
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please dont give up, and i know your tired well. its too late and im not tried, im annoyed at the fact that when i try to get help, no one will. when your told by diffrent professionals that your a lost cause and they cant help. that right there is gut renching.
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jasipe415
This life sucks, very few happy times. Mostly pain that meds can't take away. If i ever had the courage to do it, what a joyous day for those left behind. I hope for no heaven or hell, just be over, and that's it. Pain gone for good.
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This life sucks, very few happy times. Mostly pain that meds can't take away. If i ever had the courage to do it, what a joyous day for those left behind. I hope for no heaven or hell, just be over, and that's it. Pain gone for good.
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XXSHADWFANGXX
Ive tried to harm myself mutiple times but i cAnt seem to do it its fustrating knowing im to chicken to do it my feelings of suicide happen on and off idk why i feel like this but i will do it one day maybe im going to die.
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Ive tried to harm myself mutiple times but i cAnt seem to do it its fustrating knowing im to chicken to do it my feelings of suicide happen on and off idk why i feel like this but i will do it one day maybe im going to die.
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Shauno
Problem is I WANT to give up, I've lost everything. The love of my life left, I'm about to lose my apartment, my kids hate me and I lost my job. My mental health is so bad and it feels like nothing will ever change.
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Problem is I WANT to give up, I've lost everything. The love of my life left, I'm about to lose my apartment, my kids hate me and I lost my job. My mental health is so bad and it feels like nothing will ever change.
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KYRAN
People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.
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People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.
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Nic
When I first attempted I was 8. Recently, I started having suicidal thoughts again, and I went though the videos of people that I used to watch to keep me from committing. Thank you for helping me so much.
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When I first attempted I was 8. Recently, I started having suicidal thoughts again, and I went though the videos of people that I used to watch to keep me from committing. Thank you for helping me so much.
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tianna
I attempted to commit suicide when i was 11 years old, i am now 13 and i have gone back to those thoughts.
i am so scared to ask for help. sometimes i feel like i might not make it to next year.
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I attempted to commit suicide when i was 11 years old, i am now 13 and i have gone back to those thoughts.
i am so scared to ask for help. sometimes i feel like i might not make it to next year.
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Beeton
It makes me so happy to see people are still checking up on each other 2 years after this video came out. Makes me feel happy to know Im not the only person out there who feels this way
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It makes me so happy to see people are still checking up on each other 2 years after this video came out. Makes me feel happy to know Im not the only person out there who feels this way
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Zaltana
People don't have time to help me and push me away and tell me that I'm talking too much or being overdramatic so I try not to reach out and I feel like a hug peice of crap
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People don't have time to help me and push me away and tell me that I'm talking too much or being overdramatic so I try not to reach out and I feel like a hug peice of crap
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Eric
I'm not asking this to bring any negative light. But they say the hotline is anonymous. But I have a friend who called them and then they sent the law to his job. Why is that?
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I'm not asking this to bring any negative light. But they say the hotline is anonymous. But I have a friend who called them and then they sent the law to his job. Why is that?
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