6 Things People With Depression Want You to Know (PART 1)
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Date: 2023-08-20
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i really hate living tbh,
every time i try to open up to my family members and or friends, they just brush me off saying that its just a part of growing up
2 years ago, i used to just get up every morning, feeling powerless, helpless, even video games that i used to enjoy, just lost their fun,
today, i just keep thinking nonstop, brush off my own thoughts/feelings, and it just feels like i'm changing personalities, one disagreeing with the other, just outright making me think i'm going insane?
i seem normal while talking to people, and i am, i generally get distracted by talking to people,
but when i'm bored in class and nobody speaks to me, i just star to think about good/bad things people tell me, here's what i thought about yesterday in a history class:
dam, why am i alive? why was i chosen to live? i'm very useless as my father said! change in thought yeah, my father told me i'm bad in math and french, must mean i'm really a mistake! change in thought hmm, so if im a mistake, what painless are there to end my existence, perhaps a fire arm? can't reach that. hmm, jumping off a cliff, no cliffs around. change in thought if i kill myself, my dad's sad and Love deprived life would get even worse, i don't want him to die while feeling terrible change in thought hmm, well, if we both die, we wouldn't feel anything anymore, so, i wouldn't have a body to form a guilt emotion. nvm let me just focus on this lesson and try to get a high grade to make my father happy am i going insane or what? ///this is a very rough example, all of the thoughts i wrote in between - happen in less than a second, i hope you now have a rough understanding on how i live,
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i really hate living tbh,
every time i try to open up to my family members and or friends, they just brush me off saying that its just a part of growing up
2 years ago, i used to just get up every morning, feeling powerless, helpless, even video games that i used to enjoy, just lost their fun,
today, i just keep thinking nonstop, brush off my own thoughts/feelings, and it just feels like i'm changing personalities, one disagreeing with the other, just outright making me think i'm going insane?
i seem normal while talking to people, and i am, i generally get distracted by talking to people,
but when i'm bored in class and nobody speaks to me, i just star to think about good/bad things people tell me, here's what i thought about yesterday in a history class:
dam, why am i alive? why was i chosen to live? i'm very useless as my father said! change in thought yeah, my father told me i'm bad in math and french, must mean i'm really a mistake! change in thought hmm, so if im a mistake, what painless are there to end my existence, perhaps a fire arm? can't reach that. hmm, jumping off a cliff, no cliffs around. change in thought if i kill myself, my dad's sad and Love deprived life would get even worse, i don't want him to die while feeling terrible change in thought hmm, well, if we both die, we wouldn't feel anything anymore, so, i wouldn't have a body to form a guilt emotion. nvm let me just focus on this lesson and try to get a high grade to make my father happy am i going insane or what? ///this is a very rough example, all of the thoughts i wrote in between - happen in less than a second, i hope you now have a rough understanding on how i live,
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Faith
I've been diagnosed with depression and can't even talk to my own family about it. One time I tried, I wrote a letter since I was too scared to confront them. They didn't try talking to me, but took me to a therapist, and I didn't know why until my therapist told me. My family thought I was either going to cut or try to take my own life. I wasn't. My grandparents take care of me (or at least I live with them and they help me out that way) but. they also continuously put me down every day. I've spent hours up in my room crying because of it. Now, if I were to tell them, they'd deflect it and say oh you make yourself feel that way. I just want to talk to them about it (my dad is states away so I don't want to bother him about this, he already has a lot on his plate. but I know I can't. I don't have a therapist anymore since the one I had and talked to the most, the only outsider I truly opened up to the most, was biased. We had a family meeting and SHE TOOK THEIR SIDE. Now I'm always tucked away in my room. If it gets too bad, I hop on my game and shoot NPCs to help me take my anger out that way and it does help (I wouldn't hurt a fly IRL, though. It's sad to know that I can only open up to friends about it and it's only online that I can. Getting tattoos kind of helps me, as well. since my mind goes to that pain instead. Makes something beautiful and meaningful through the pain
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I've been diagnosed with depression and can't even talk to my own family about it. One time I tried, I wrote a letter since I was too scared to confront them. They didn't try talking to me, but took me to a therapist, and I didn't know why until my therapist told me. My family thought I was either going to cut or try to take my own life. I wasn't. My grandparents take care of me (or at least I live with them and they help me out that way) but. they also continuously put me down every day. I've spent hours up in my room crying because of it. Now, if I were to tell them, they'd deflect it and say oh you make yourself feel that way. I just want to talk to them about it (my dad is states away so I don't want to bother him about this, he already has a lot on his plate. but I know I can't. I don't have a therapist anymore since the one I had and talked to the most, the only outsider I truly opened up to the most, was biased. We had a family meeting and SHE TOOK THEIR SIDE. Now I'm always tucked away in my room. If it gets too bad, I hop on my game and shoot NPCs to help me take my anger out that way and it does help (I wouldn't hurt a fly IRL, though. It's sad to know that I can only open up to friends about it and it's only online that I can. Getting tattoos kind of helps me, as well. since my mind goes to that pain instead. Makes something beautiful and meaningful through the pain
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SIRSMOKESALOT
I hate how if you are going through depression people look at you differently than everyone else if they know you are going through something or not, because (maybe) you look miserable and tired and you don't socialize with everyone around you and you don't scream like a whiny weirdo 24/7 like everyone else, people think that you are bad because of your struggles but they don't know that, and due to this there isn't really much hope on the outside but there is still hope it is just hard to reach out to for some people, especially if you consider how if you were to tell people you were going through a mental illness people just act like you are faking it, spread rumors about you, ruin your image, place labels onto you, and cause all sorts of harassment because no one will EVER understand what you are going through, why are you YOU! 1! why are you quiet and anti-social! 1! why are you different from all the other obnoxious annoying kids like us! 1! I'm going to make everyone around you hate you because different because of your mental illness! 1! your evil because you're not like us! 1! your emo! 1! stop acting emotional! 1! stop crying depression isn't real it's just an emo thing! 1! 1! 1! 1! 11!
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I hate how if you are going through depression people look at you differently than everyone else if they know you are going through something or not, because (maybe) you look miserable and tired and you don't socialize with everyone around you and you don't scream like a whiny weirdo 24/7 like everyone else, people think that you are bad because of your struggles but they don't know that, and due to this there isn't really much hope on the outside but there is still hope it is just hard to reach out to for some people, especially if you consider how if you were to tell people you were going through a mental illness people just act like you are faking it, spread rumors about you, ruin your image, place labels onto you, and cause all sorts of harassment because no one will EVER understand what you are going through, why are you YOU! 1! why are you quiet and anti-social! 1! why are you different from all the other obnoxious annoying kids like us! 1! I'm going to make everyone around you hate you because different because of your mental illness! 1! your evil because you're not like us! 1! your emo! 1! stop acting emotional! 1! stop crying depression isn't real it's just an emo thing! 1! 1! 1! 1! 11!
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PeanutButter
I appreciate that you covered the topic of not always wanting to end your life but wanting to live differently, and the fact there isnt always a reason for the feelings. For the past year Ive had suicidal thoughts every 10-20 minutes and a lot of the time I didnt actually want to. I was able to find a lot of comfort from this video, especially when you said there doesnt have to be a reason for it. Ive struggled quite a bit with it, and tried to deny that I had depression because I couldnt think of a reason for it. The part about people needing to just listen and stay loyal really hit too. Ive lost a couple of friends in the past because they complained or stopped talking to me when I wanted to talk about my problems. I havent talked to my parents about it yet either because just this year they found out that I have ADD, dyslexia, and I had to get a pre-cancerous spot removed; I dont want to add more to that list right now.
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I appreciate that you covered the topic of not always wanting to end your life but wanting to live differently, and the fact there isnt always a reason for the feelings. For the past year Ive had suicidal thoughts every 10-20 minutes and a lot of the time I didnt actually want to. I was able to find a lot of comfort from this video, especially when you said there doesnt have to be a reason for it. Ive struggled quite a bit with it, and tried to deny that I had depression because I couldnt think of a reason for it. The part about people needing to just listen and stay loyal really hit too. Ive lost a couple of friends in the past because they complained or stopped talking to me when I wanted to talk about my problems. I havent talked to my parents about it yet either because just this year they found out that I have ADD, dyslexia, and I had to get a pre-cancerous spot removed; I dont want to add more to that list right now.
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Zachary
Nobody can fully understand without experiencing it themselves.
To wake up everyday and do your best to get better, only to wake up the next morning to see it wasn't enough every single day.
To watch helplessly as your friends and family waste time and energy trying to solve your mental paradox. To watch them hurting just because you can't get better.
To cry out in silent desperation for a savior that will never arrive, because in your fear you sealed away everything that could draw them to you.
To harbor endless hatred for the entire society that birthed you, for their hopeless inability to assist or validate us. As the judgemental fools turn us slowly into heartless monsters.
To be born into a world that you were hopeless to ever be mentally compatible with. A world that constantly promises it can help, when in truth they cannot.
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Nobody can fully understand without experiencing it themselves.
To wake up everyday and do your best to get better, only to wake up the next morning to see it wasn't enough every single day.
To watch helplessly as your friends and family waste time and energy trying to solve your mental paradox. To watch them hurting just because you can't get better.
To cry out in silent desperation for a savior that will never arrive, because in your fear you sealed away everything that could draw them to you.
To harbor endless hatred for the entire society that birthed you, for their hopeless inability to assist or validate us. As the judgemental fools turn us slowly into heartless monsters.
To be born into a world that you were hopeless to ever be mentally compatible with. A world that constantly promises it can help, when in truth they cannot.
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Tyvani
One of the worst things about depression in my personal life is that I can't consult my family for help because my parents believe that depression, or any other mental illness for that matter, is a sign of weakness. Perhaps it is. I'm not sure at this point. I've got nobody to turn to, I can't handle talking to strangers because of social anxiety, and at this point, I'm confused about what to think. It's like I have this gaping hole in my soul, and it has consumed all emotion and rational thought. So, I don't know what I can do to get help. My friends don't believe me, my family disowns me, and I feel like this world doesn't need another failure. What to do.
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One of the worst things about depression in my personal life is that I can't consult my family for help because my parents believe that depression, or any other mental illness for that matter, is a sign of weakness. Perhaps it is. I'm not sure at this point. I've got nobody to turn to, I can't handle talking to strangers because of social anxiety, and at this point, I'm confused about what to think. It's like I have this gaping hole in my soul, and it has consumed all emotion and rational thought. So, I don't know what I can do to get help. My friends don't believe me, my family disowns me, and I feel like this world doesn't need another failure. What to do.
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Fractim
Im not quite sure what kind of mental illness I have, but depression is probably on of the more likely candidates.
I just dont feel happy anymore, I can feel excited and humorous, but my general enjoyment of life is just kinda gone. Not only that but most of my negative emotions have been kicked up a notch, such as sadness and frustration. I also feel absolutely hopeless and demotivated. I feel like there are other things, but Im not sure I can express anything else in understandable words.
I am entirely sure I need help, but where I live its quite hard to get this kind of help.
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Im not quite sure what kind of mental illness I have, but depression is probably on of the more likely candidates.
I just dont feel happy anymore, I can feel excited and humorous, but my general enjoyment of life is just kinda gone. Not only that but most of my negative emotions have been kicked up a notch, such as sadness and frustration. I also feel absolutely hopeless and demotivated. I feel like there are other things, but Im not sure I can express anything else in understandable words.
I am entirely sure I need help, but where I live its quite hard to get this kind of help.
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Lanna
Just gonna go on a mini rant here. number 6 really helped. Not so much for people around me but for me. I've struggled with depression for years and I keep pushing people away because I feel like I'd just be poison in their lives. I didnt want to be that one rainy cloud they had in their bright sunny day. So hearing that just because I may not be at my best doesnt mean I'm toxic, really helped. Thank you so much and its nice to have these videos and see that I'm not the only person who feels this way. Anyways thanks for tolerating that mini rant have a nice day: )
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Just gonna go on a mini rant here. number 6 really helped. Not so much for people around me but for me. I've struggled with depression for years and I keep pushing people away because I feel like I'd just be poison in their lives. I didnt want to be that one rainy cloud they had in their bright sunny day. So hearing that just because I may not be at my best doesnt mean I'm toxic, really helped. Thank you so much and its nice to have these videos and see that I'm not the only person who feels this way. Anyways thanks for tolerating that mini rant have a nice day: )
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Max
I honestly feel so alone
None of my family members/close friends have depression, or any mental illnesses (that I know of, so they have no idea how my brain works.
They say such hurtful things and it just makes it so much worse
I know they have good intentions, but it just makes this so much harder to deal with. I feel like I cant talk to them.
I dont know how to convey to them how I feel, what depression is like, and how hurtful the things that they say to me are.
I just. I dont know what to do anymore, and its the worst feeling in the world.
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I honestly feel so alone
None of my family members/close friends have depression, or any mental illnesses (that I know of, so they have no idea how my brain works.
They say such hurtful things and it just makes it so much worse
I know they have good intentions, but it just makes this so much harder to deal with. I feel like I cant talk to them.
I dont know how to convey to them how I feel, what depression is like, and how hurtful the things that they say to me are.
I just. I dont know what to do anymore, and its the worst feeling in the world.
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Lee
Its kinda funny to me since when I tell my close friends I don't want to live but I don't want to kill myself and hurt my family or friends they are like what do you want me to do. I say nothing you cant say anything or do and I told my mom like a hint in a way that I'm mentally tired and don't want to live shes like its normal. Me in my head Im like you sure? Im not saying im depressed but im mentally tired and don't want to wake up in the morning i call it my fog when i just don't want to get up and leave my bed and feel alone and not wanted.
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Its kinda funny to me since when I tell my close friends I don't want to live but I don't want to kill myself and hurt my family or friends they are like what do you want me to do. I say nothing you cant say anything or do and I told my mom like a hint in a way that I'm mentally tired and don't want to live shes like its normal. Me in my head Im like you sure? Im not saying im depressed but im mentally tired and don't want to wake up in the morning i call it my fog when i just don't want to get up and leave my bed and feel alone and not wanted.
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Luna
I'm tired. When I tell someone about how things hard my parents words replay in my mind.
I'm a attention seeker
I'm too over dramatic
I was useless child
I am not enough
I need to try more
I'm far away from God
I overreacting
I can't talk about family badly
In the the end I feel guilty to talk, I feel bad for them to comfort me because I'm the problem. I wish to vanished, I want to be alone but I'm scared to be alone. I'm a attention seeker that didn't deserve any sympathy from the other. I'm simply, a bad person
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I'm tired. When I tell someone about how things hard my parents words replay in my mind.
I'm a attention seeker
I'm too over dramatic
I was useless child
I am not enough
I need to try more
I'm far away from God
I overreacting
I can't talk about family badly
In the the end I feel guilty to talk, I feel bad for them to comfort me because I'm the problem. I wish to vanished, I want to be alone but I'm scared to be alone. I'm a attention seeker that didn't deserve any sympathy from the other. I'm simply, a bad person
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Wendy
I've been depressed much of my life, though I wasn't diagnosed until after the traumatic brain injury at age 15. I had already attempted suicide at least twice by then, though my parents were unaware of it until I mentioned it in a family counseling session (after the accident all my filters were wonky so I didn't understand why it was such a big secret anymore. They were loving and supportive and made sure I got the care I needed, and I'm eternally grateful to them. Side note: today (30 November) is their 53rd anniversary!
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I've been depressed much of my life, though I wasn't diagnosed until after the traumatic brain injury at age 15. I had already attempted suicide at least twice by then, though my parents were unaware of it until I mentioned it in a family counseling session (after the accident all my filters were wonky so I didn't understand why it was such a big secret anymore. They were loving and supportive and made sure I got the care I needed, and I'm eternally grateful to them. Side note: today (30 November) is their 53rd anniversary!
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Spectral
I noticed, before I even got halfway into the video, I began tilting my head and having an innocent expression. I usually have a stoic or bored expression. I think that was my way of pretending to be oblivious. Not entirely sure if this has any value, but I thought it might be helpful for future studies or something. Idk.
Update: The wanting to escape part makes a lot of sense. The only time I feel truly happy is when Im writing fan fiction lmao.
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I noticed, before I even got halfway into the video, I began tilting my head and having an innocent expression. I usually have a stoic or bored expression. I think that was my way of pretending to be oblivious. Not entirely sure if this has any value, but I thought it might be helpful for future studies or something. Idk.
Update: The wanting to escape part makes a lot of sense. The only time I feel truly happy is when Im writing fan fiction lmao.
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Trippywolfgamer28
With my depression when I was su//dial (Im less death wanting but unfortunately still suffering with depression) I use to tell my parents that I felt like an angel stuck in a meat suit a cage and I wanted to be free. They usually would threaten to put me into a mental hospital instead of comfort me so I grew afraid of ever thinking of death and instead would agree with my ma on a peaceful death when Im older aka passing away in my sleep
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With my depression when I was su//dial (Im less death wanting but unfortunately still suffering with depression) I use to tell my parents that I felt like an angel stuck in a meat suit a cage and I wanted to be free. They usually would threaten to put me into a mental hospital instead of comfort me so I grew afraid of ever thinking of death and instead would agree with my ma on a peaceful death when Im older aka passing away in my sleep
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KokichiILoveYou
I tried to kill myself in my sleep. Mom and dad thought I was lying got upset and ye stuff then tried to get hir by a car then my feelings went away I felt nothing. It felt nice after 2 and a half days they were back and forced myself to make different me's per say so I could make others happy yet keep hurting myself. lol I should take therapy nvm I would be a nervous wreck lol
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I tried to kill myself in my sleep. Mom and dad thought I was lying got upset and ye stuff then tried to get hir by a car then my feelings went away I felt nothing. It felt nice after 2 and a half days they were back and forced myself to make different me's per say so I could make others happy yet keep hurting myself. lol I should take therapy nvm I would be a nervous wreck lol
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Ichika
I really hate it when someone finally knows I have depression, then they treat me very differently. They will stop invite me to some party cuz they believe that I'm not in the mood for social life and too tired to get out from my bed. To this day, I just keep quiet about my depression, not until I can find someone that would willing to learn about it more instead of making assumption
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I really hate it when someone finally knows I have depression, then they treat me very differently. They will stop invite me to some party cuz they believe that I'm not in the mood for social life and too tired to get out from my bed. To this day, I just keep quiet about my depression, not until I can find someone that would willing to learn about it more instead of making assumption
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william
My girlfriend of 11 months that lives a couple miles away from. She just stop answering my texts and calls. It's been a couple of months since I have heard from her. I have been text her nice positive texts every morning and a nice voicemail once a week. I'm a the point of giving up on her. The last we were together I know she loves me and she know I love her. What should I do?
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My girlfriend of 11 months that lives a couple miles away from. She just stop answering my texts and calls. It's been a couple of months since I have heard from her. I have been text her nice positive texts every morning and a nice voicemail once a week. I'm a the point of giving up on her. The last we were together I know she loves me and she know I love her. What should I do?
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Spaghetti
I don't care about feeling better. If feeling better requires effort, I don't want to, because everything in the world that isn't worth it will be just as unworthy by the time I could fix myself. It doesn't matter; I just want to be alone, and minimise the shame and annoyance I recieve around others.
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I don't care about feeling better. If feeling better requires effort, I don't want to, because everything in the world that isn't worth it will be just as unworthy by the time I could fix myself. It doesn't matter; I just want to be alone, and minimise the shame and annoyance I recieve around others.
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Giana
What is the difference in being depressed or being depressed because of a darker situation such as like if someone was not only controlling and possessive or toxic maybe even manipulation. (If that person is evil and the victim has illusions, flashbacks, feelings of emptiness?
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What is the difference in being depressed or being depressed because of a darker situation such as like if someone was not only controlling and possessive or toxic maybe even manipulation. (If that person is evil and the victim has illusions, flashbacks, feelings of emptiness?
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Chaos
The worst part is when people get in your head, and then you start questioning if you actually have depression, and then your depression doesnt think its good enough to be real depression, and now you have depressed depression.
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The worst part is when people get in your head, and then you start questioning if you actually have depression, and then your depression doesnt think its good enough to be real depression, and now you have depressed depression.
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Julien
Ive been depressed for years and my meds suddenly arent helping anymore. I went to my moms room and told her how ive been sad and she said im not going to let your negative energy mess with my happiness and then left.
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Ive been depressed for years and my meds suddenly arent helping anymore. I went to my moms room and told her how ive been sad and she said im not going to let your negative energy mess with my happiness and then left.
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Cxnnxbal
I have a question, why might someone who believed they possibly were suffering depression one day after a long time just suddenly wake up and not know why they felt that way despite still remembering the reasons?
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I have a question, why might someone who believed they possibly were suffering depression one day after a long time just suddenly wake up and not know why they felt that way despite still remembering the reasons?
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Laurie
I plan on showing this to my partner when I see her. I hope she watches it with an open mind and without a preconception that this video is somehow a way for me to justify why I get like I do some times.
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I plan on showing this to my partner when I see her. I hope she watches it with an open mind and without a preconception that this video is somehow a way for me to justify why I get like I do some times.
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Alexa
How do I comfort my friend who has bipolar when she cant escape the exhausting parts of her life? too young to move out, family issues, feels like theres nothing left, Im not sure how to help her.
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How do I comfort my friend who has bipolar when she cant escape the exhausting parts of her life? too young to move out, family issues, feels like theres nothing left, Im not sure how to help her.
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Repa
My best friend is going through depression and she just started getting angry at me and I still forgive her even if she says something mean to me because I know she isnt trying to be toxic
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My best friend is going through depression and she just started getting angry at me and I still forgive her even if she says something mean to me because I know she isnt trying to be toxic
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