Borderline Personality Disorder. What is it?
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Date: 2023-08-20
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I suspect I have this, does anyone else experience the following?
- when friends text back with a different vibe than usual, being less talkative, etc, I get paranoid that they like me less, so then I decide to cut contact with them for hours and I feel extremely sad and depressed about the ideas that I've convinced myself of.
- I get paranoid that people are talking about me behind my back, or are planning to physically or emotionally hurt me in some way
- I'm extremely bitter towards certain people (usually family or certain friends, not all friends, I am only like this with some, sarcasm comes out and I'm passive aggressive when I'm agitated. I feel guilty and make an effort to not do the same next time, but it happens anyways.
- If someone doesn't respond to me within a few hours but I know they're online, I take it as they like me less, and I shut my phone off and ignore everyone. I don't know why I do this but that's what I do lol
- when I get jealous or insecure of myself, I change things about my social media's such as mass-deletion of photos, etc to make my online image look better
- I almost feel angry at myself for the way I look sometimes. I feel so pretty and amazing one day, and confident, but that feeling can change within an hour to feeling ugly, self loathing. I want to stop talking to everyone when I feel this way and sit on my bed and stare at a wall.
- I sometimes ignore messages from people that care about me for hours because I feel annoying, insecure, or empty and depressed.
- I get extremely jealous and convince myself that my friends will find better friends, end up disliking me, etc and this idea makes me start to dislike them and hate them, but then the next day (or when they respond to my text, I will feel completely fine.
- My self image sometimes gets so bad that I don't speak to anyone or text anyone, and I often reject people because I feel like they just deserve someone prettier, etc even if I am pretty already. I feel depressed, like I want to cry and not talk to anybody, because they probably have better people in their lives anyways. Sometimes I feel worthless, in other words.
- I get moods where I'm happy, feeling artistic and motivated and people notice it so much that they prompt me about it, for example Wow, you're really happy today, what's going on with you? and stuff like that.
- I'm really muted with my positive expressions. I feel like I can't feel them properly or as well as most people
- I am hesitant to be open with my mom. When I talk to her I feel like I have a natural guard up that makes it too awkward to show positive emotions, etc. My relationship with my mom and some friends of mine is like this, where I'm monotone, not very ecstatic, or passive aggressive. This one is hard to explain.
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I suspect I have this, does anyone else experience the following?
- when friends text back with a different vibe than usual, being less talkative, etc, I get paranoid that they like me less, so then I decide to cut contact with them for hours and I feel extremely sad and depressed about the ideas that I've convinced myself of.
- I get paranoid that people are talking about me behind my back, or are planning to physically or emotionally hurt me in some way
- I'm extremely bitter towards certain people (usually family or certain friends, not all friends, I am only like this with some, sarcasm comes out and I'm passive aggressive when I'm agitated. I feel guilty and make an effort to not do the same next time, but it happens anyways.
- If someone doesn't respond to me within a few hours but I know they're online, I take it as they like me less, and I shut my phone off and ignore everyone. I don't know why I do this but that's what I do lol
- when I get jealous or insecure of myself, I change things about my social media's such as mass-deletion of photos, etc to make my online image look better
- I almost feel angry at myself for the way I look sometimes. I feel so pretty and amazing one day, and confident, but that feeling can change within an hour to feeling ugly, self loathing. I want to stop talking to everyone when I feel this way and sit on my bed and stare at a wall.
- I sometimes ignore messages from people that care about me for hours because I feel annoying, insecure, or empty and depressed.
- I get extremely jealous and convince myself that my friends will find better friends, end up disliking me, etc and this idea makes me start to dislike them and hate them, but then the next day (or when they respond to my text, I will feel completely fine.
- My self image sometimes gets so bad that I don't speak to anyone or text anyone, and I often reject people because I feel like they just deserve someone prettier, etc even if I am pretty already. I feel depressed, like I want to cry and not talk to anybody, because they probably have better people in their lives anyways. Sometimes I feel worthless, in other words.
- I get moods where I'm happy, feeling artistic and motivated and people notice it so much that they prompt me about it, for example Wow, you're really happy today, what's going on with you? and stuff like that.
- I'm really muted with my positive expressions. I feel like I can't feel them properly or as well as most people
- I am hesitant to be open with my mom. When I talk to her I feel like I have a natural guard up that makes it too awkward to show positive emotions, etc. My relationship with my mom and some friends of mine is like this, where I'm monotone, not very ecstatic, or passive aggressive. This one is hard to explain.
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Roxanne
I'm trying over and over to think positively about my brother that has BPD, but it's been 3 years and he's in a poor state. He dropped out of school and only finished high school. He can't be productive and his appartment is truly disgusting, that's why he's returning home(shitty for me) Obviously, he can't even handle a part-time job. He is 23 years old. He consumes a lot of weed that my parents buy for him. Seriously, he's becoming so toxic to our family cause he's always in need of attention. My parents are worned out completely. They have to take care of him even during the night when he has breakdowns. He's always on the verge of suicide so my parents are trying their best, honestly they're doing everything they can. They took lessons on how to handle the mental illness. My brother is following therapy, but I don't seem to see any progress. I'm tired of this because it also affects me. I also go to therapy basically because of him. I'm only 16 and much more mature and responsable than him. I can't even do anything to control the situation, it's not my responsability, it's my parents'. Can anyone give me advice? cause i don't have any ounce of empathy left for him in my heart. It pains me since he's my brother, but he sure is a burden.
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I'm trying over and over to think positively about my brother that has BPD, but it's been 3 years and he's in a poor state. He dropped out of school and only finished high school. He can't be productive and his appartment is truly disgusting, that's why he's returning home(shitty for me) Obviously, he can't even handle a part-time job. He is 23 years old. He consumes a lot of weed that my parents buy for him. Seriously, he's becoming so toxic to our family cause he's always in need of attention. My parents are worned out completely. They have to take care of him even during the night when he has breakdowns. He's always on the verge of suicide so my parents are trying their best, honestly they're doing everything they can. They took lessons on how to handle the mental illness. My brother is following therapy, but I don't seem to see any progress. I'm tired of this because it also affects me. I also go to therapy basically because of him. I'm only 16 and much more mature and responsable than him. I can't even do anything to control the situation, it's not my responsability, it's my parents'. Can anyone give me advice? cause i don't have any ounce of empathy left for him in my heart. It pains me since he's my brother, but he sure is a burden.
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Albin
I have been diagnosed with BPD. BPD is so complex to talk about when you are not speaking to a person that also has it. More often the feelings are so overwhelming that you cant even describe what you are feeling, it can be a mix of so many different kinds of feelings. Anxiety mixed with anger and disgust just for an example, for me that has been how ive behaved in deep relationships with girlfriends, uncontrollable feelings that are so foggy and not logic at all, something gets triggered, a thought comes up, a fake scenario is made and last the fake scenario becomes a reality, not in the mind but in your feelings, fake shit can feel so real its absolutely fcked up. I guess its kind of a self-defense mech? Go through feelings before they happen or ever will happen? Although in the end of the day to make things easier you have to be in absolute self-control over your feelings, and also have done therapy to become aware of every aspect of behavior you have. You are not born with BPD, call it a personality disorder but to be honest its more of a in-learned behavior, I never asked for this but here I am, taking responsibility for my own healing even though I didnt cause it, thanks.
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I have been diagnosed with BPD. BPD is so complex to talk about when you are not speaking to a person that also has it. More often the feelings are so overwhelming that you cant even describe what you are feeling, it can be a mix of so many different kinds of feelings. Anxiety mixed with anger and disgust just for an example, for me that has been how ive behaved in deep relationships with girlfriends, uncontrollable feelings that are so foggy and not logic at all, something gets triggered, a thought comes up, a fake scenario is made and last the fake scenario becomes a reality, not in the mind but in your feelings, fake shit can feel so real its absolutely fcked up. I guess its kind of a self-defense mech? Go through feelings before they happen or ever will happen? Although in the end of the day to make things easier you have to be in absolute self-control over your feelings, and also have done therapy to become aware of every aspect of behavior you have. You are not born with BPD, call it a personality disorder but to be honest its more of a in-learned behavior, I never asked for this but here I am, taking responsibility for my own healing even though I didnt cause it, thanks.
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ariana
Ok yall need to understand something real quick. Bipolar is a mood disorder, BPD is a personality disorder. With BPD in the same 5 minutes I can cry/laugh/and be angry. In BPD we can have it all, like me, I have BPD, Major Depression, Severe anxiety, and Im bipolar. Its sad to live with. Trust me, most the people who claim they have Bpd have gone to many doctors and through many years before admitting it. It isnt something easy to admit. Got diagnosed 4 years ago, and just finally admitted it and am trying 2 months ago. Borderline has the highest rates In suicide because people dont listen. They compare other things to it. I wish all I had it so simple. I wish I didnt get attached even when I dont want a person around. Its weird.
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Ok yall need to understand something real quick. Bipolar is a mood disorder, BPD is a personality disorder. With BPD in the same 5 minutes I can cry/laugh/and be angry. In BPD we can have it all, like me, I have BPD, Major Depression, Severe anxiety, and Im bipolar. Its sad to live with. Trust me, most the people who claim they have Bpd have gone to many doctors and through many years before admitting it. It isnt something easy to admit. Got diagnosed 4 years ago, and just finally admitted it and am trying 2 months ago. Borderline has the highest rates In suicide because people dont listen. They compare other things to it. I wish all I had it so simple. I wish I didnt get attached even when I dont want a person around. Its weird.
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Hiss
Im not self diagnosing rn. For the last 4 years I have had diagnosed depression and anxiety, Im nearly 16. I have almost all of the symptoms for BPD, and theyve been present for a long time. I brought this up with my doctor a year or two ago and he said that these symptoms can be very present in adolescence, and professionals are reluctant to diagnose people under the age of 18. I understand that, but Im still a bit worried because it specifically fits a lot of what I feel. I might bring it up with my doctor again and see what he has to say about it
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Im not self diagnosing rn. For the last 4 years I have had diagnosed depression and anxiety, Im nearly 16. I have almost all of the symptoms for BPD, and theyve been present for a long time. I brought this up with my doctor a year or two ago and he said that these symptoms can be very present in adolescence, and professionals are reluctant to diagnose people under the age of 18. I understand that, but Im still a bit worried because it specifically fits a lot of what I feel. I might bring it up with my doctor again and see what he has to say about it
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cookiemonster8
I have bpd and didnt realize I had it or even knew it existed until my guidance counselor told me she suspected that I had it and was further confirmed by a psychiatrist. I was so unstable and lost so many friends because of it. However, Im doing much better and have been with my partner for a while now but I still struggle in maintaining relationships with friends. Communication is one of the best things you can do for yourself if you have bpd or know someone with bpd
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I have bpd and didnt realize I had it or even knew it existed until my guidance counselor told me she suspected that I had it and was further confirmed by a psychiatrist. I was so unstable and lost so many friends because of it. However, Im doing much better and have been with my partner for a while now but I still struggle in maintaining relationships with friends. Communication is one of the best things you can do for yourself if you have bpd or know someone with bpd
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Danisha
Im gonna tell you what it really is!
My emotions and moods are out of wack!
I cant keep up w myself. I never know how Im gonna feel in a daily basis. What I do about it is get up at 4am and go to the gym.
Let out all high energy and go the rest of the day on calm limited energy.
This helps so much. My Anxiety and Depression have been calm.
Exercise is life! Thank God!
But still I am disordered so I suffer. I suffer a lot
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Im gonna tell you what it really is!
My emotions and moods are out of wack!
I cant keep up w myself. I never know how Im gonna feel in a daily basis. What I do about it is get up at 4am and go to the gym.
Let out all high energy and go the rest of the day on calm limited energy.
This helps so much. My Anxiety and Depression have been calm.
Exercise is life! Thank God!
But still I am disordered so I suffer. I suffer a lot
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Amy
Can anyone tell me if they can relate but on multiple occasions after being really upset/angry/annoyed by someone I have thought of suicide but not because I want to kill myself. Because I want them to regret how they treated me. I dont actually want to kill my self because I am really scared of it lol but Ive fantasied about it
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Can anyone tell me if they can relate but on multiple occasions after being really upset/angry/annoyed by someone I have thought of suicide but not because I want to kill myself. Because I want them to regret how they treated me. I dont actually want to kill my self because I am really scared of it lol but Ive fantasied about it
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Darling
Everyone is different. Thats one of the only things we can all have in common as human beings. We are complex but we are also still human. Relating and being healthy mentally, physically and spirituality should be supported and preservered by and for everyone; and not just for others and or by others, but for yourself too.
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Everyone is different. Thats one of the only things we can all have in common as human beings. We are complex but we are also still human. Relating and being healthy mentally, physically and spirituality should be supported and preservered by and for everyone; and not just for others and or by others, but for yourself too.
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JAM
Since 2017 when I was sent to a medical behavioral center for a couple of days, I'd been wondering if I have a personality disorder. If I do, which one do I have? I've been wondering if I do have a disorder, is it bipolar or borderline personality that I think is the reason I'd been having issues?
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Since 2017 when I was sent to a medical behavioral center for a couple of days, I'd been wondering if I have a personality disorder. If I do, which one do I have? I've been wondering if I do have a disorder, is it bipolar or borderline personality that I think is the reason I'd been having issues?
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SHADY
I strongly relate to everything im seeing about bpd. I also have lots of conflicting personality traits that fluctuate all the time. I can barely grasp who I am and what I believe, but even then I can easily understand those with the opposite values to mine.
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I strongly relate to everything im seeing about bpd. I also have lots of conflicting personality traits that fluctuate all the time. I can barely grasp who I am and what I believe, but even then I can easily understand those with the opposite values to mine.
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LAUVE_ID
I am still in an abusive rl. I seek help. my family didnt even call me. nobody calls me to ask how was my day. what i fell. what happen today. i need friends. i need somebody to help me. but im to afraid if i tell. Someone i care would get in trouble.
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I am still in an abusive rl. I seek help. my family didnt even call me. nobody calls me to ask how was my day. what i fell. what happen today. i need friends. i need somebody to help me. but im to afraid if i tell. Someone i care would get in trouble.
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Alexis
I have struggled with this illness most of my life it was really bad as a teenager. I still have it some days are hard and some days are easier to deal with but nonetheless still a struggle for me at least. I wish their was a cure but their is not one.
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I have struggled with this illness most of my life it was really bad as a teenager. I still have it some days are hard and some days are easier to deal with but nonetheless still a struggle for me at least. I wish their was a cure but their is not one.
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Ruequi
I have BPD and im going thru DBT therapy, self sabotage and rage outbursts were my main negative reactions to rejection, if i felt ignored i cut myself, i cant handle everyday social interaction so i keep myself isolated, i miss my old life.
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I have BPD and im going thru DBT therapy, self sabotage and rage outbursts were my main negative reactions to rejection, if i felt ignored i cut myself, i cant handle everyday social interaction so i keep myself isolated, i miss my old life.
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Sherlyn
I had a friend once and she was one of my best friends and literally one day I thought she was annoying and started disliking her so much I dont know why. And then I felt very bad and came back to her. Im kinda worried about myself now.
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I had a friend once and she was one of my best friends and literally one day I thought she was annoying and started disliking her so much I dont know why. And then I felt very bad and came back to her. Im kinda worried about myself now.
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Laurie
I felt stigmatized by someone with BPD. She was taken seriously. I see a difference. I used to have flat effect. I do not understand her. Flat effect does not last forever. How would you like a partner with flat effect?
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I felt stigmatized by someone with BPD. She was taken seriously. I see a difference. I used to have flat effect. I do not understand her. Flat effect does not last forever. How would you like a partner with flat effect?
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education
You really can switch whether you want to or not. I can be feeling very happy and positive and all it can take to enrage me (or suddenly become very pissed) is one look my dad gives me when I see him after I wake up.
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You really can switch whether you want to or not. I can be feeling very happy and positive and all it can take to enrage me (or suddenly become very pissed) is one look my dad gives me when I see him after I wake up.
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Pupper
When I was younger, I drew an image just like the one at 0: 37 to describe the weird way I felt.
I discovered it a couple of weeks ago in an older sketchbook and seeing one like it here made me wonder.
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When I was younger, I drew an image just like the one at 0: 37 to describe the weird way I felt.
I discovered it a couple of weeks ago in an older sketchbook and seeing one like it here made me wonder.
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Sky
It's scary how accurate this is for me, I think I'm scared of myself because it's like I don't know who I am and I'm afraid to express myself about it because people will think I'm crazy or won't believe me
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It's scary how accurate this is for me, I think I'm scared of myself because it's like I don't know who I am and I'm afraid to express myself about it because people will think I'm crazy or won't believe me
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Dkekdjeken
i like like 99% of the symptoms but havent been diagnosed because my therapist says im too young but i dont just wanna live like this and pretend its normal cause im young (im 16 btw)
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i like like 99% of the symptoms but havent been diagnosed because my therapist says im too young but i dont just wanna live like this and pretend its normal cause im young (im 16 btw)
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RikuSama13
It's like when I'm walking outside with my music on and feeling like a god, coming back to home from work, have a misunderstood with my girlfriend and go from the stade of god to
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It's like when I'm walking outside with my music on and feeling like a god, coming back to home from work, have a misunderstood with my girlfriend and go from the stade of god to
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Sylvester
To me it's bipolar but you switch a lot faster
I thought I had bipolar but my mom spoke to my brother's therapist about me and the therapist said it was bpd and not bipolar
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To me it's bipolar but you switch a lot faster
I thought I had bipolar but my mom spoke to my brother's therapist about me and the therapist said it was bpd and not bipolar
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celartzee
I occasionally wish I could talk to a therapist, but I don't want my family to know that I'm like this. It's difficult when no one understands how you're feeling.
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I occasionally wish I could talk to a therapist, but I don't want my family to know that I'm like this. It's difficult when no one understands how you're feeling.
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Mary
Watch another video somewhere today about bpd and studies that founded people completely symptom free after 10 years. Thanks neoroplastisity or however ya spell it
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Watch another video somewhere today about bpd and studies that founded people completely symptom free after 10 years. Thanks neoroplastisity or however ya spell it
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zg
i trusted a person i trusted the most and she broke my trust. for 4 months, i recognized i was changing my personalities very fastly and understood i have bpd.
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i trusted a person i trusted the most and she broke my trust. for 4 months, i recognized i was changing my personalities very fastly and understood i have bpd.
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